In the fifth week of our series, Help I’m Hurting, we heard powerful messages from five communicators, who are leaders at Transformation Church and two members from TC Nation who shared what they are healing from. Check out this message and share it with someone in your life who needs to hear it!

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hey

family

what is up my name is ryan and i’m

healing from growth

now question when you were younger did

you ever ask yourself or think to

yourself

man i can’t wait till i’m grown so i can

get up out of this house okay

well if it was you raise your hand in

the room and in the chat because i hear

you i feel you i was you

but the more i think about it the more i

realized that when i was younger i

thought that being grown really just

meant that i had the freedom to do

whatever i wanted when i wanted

but as i got older as i’m sure a lot of

you adults can attest in the room the

more that i realized that adulting is

actually an entire scam

and you know before you agree too much

it’s probably not the scam that you’re

thinking so you’re probably thinking of

the scam of paying bills and having all

these responsibilities that no one told

you about but that’s not what i mean i

mean the scam that a lot of us think

that being an adult means that we’re

mature

and that’s not it at all fam that’s not

it at all you see adulthood is defined

by age but maturity is characterized by

growth

and perhaps the biggest scam of all that

really got me all

is that believing that when we grow

that we won’t experience pain

but the thing is when we think about it

growth is pain

in the book leadership pain dr samuel

chan spells out this beautiful equation

he says that growth equals change change

equals loss

loss

equals pain

and therefore growth equals pain

and the pain

that we experience is secretly outlined

in john 15 16 by jesus he says this he

says you have not chosen me but i have

chosen you and i have appointed and

placed and purposefully planted you so

you would go and bear fruit and keep on

bearing and that your fruit would remain

and be lasting so that whatever you ask

of the father in my name as my

representative he may give to you

so in this text christ points out three

things he positions us

he plants us but it is our

responsibility to produce

and then this process of growth we may

start to experience some things that we

don’t even know how to articulate

and that’s what i’m calling the grief of

growth

and grief

honestly is not just a loss of a person

it’s any deep sorrow caused by any loss

or that’s the loss of who you thought

you were going to be the loss of how you

thought things were going to go or turn

out the loss of your plans

so i’m going to share with you my story

of the grief of growth you see first

christ positioned me he called me to

another standard you see back in school

you know like when you’re chosen by god

and you hear in the bible you hear

preachers talk about it

it sounds amazing but the truth is that

being chosen and being called being

positioned by god doesn’t always feel

good

and if i’m being honest it led me to ask

myself questions like lord

why do i have to be pure

all these saints is out here whiling in

these streets

living their best thought lives

and i just don’t understand they seem

happy but why do i why do i have to be

pure

and then i ask questions like

lord why do i have to use my gifts for

you

everyone else is doing whatever they

want making all this money and being

successful

and i’m just here buried and broke

why why lord why i don’t understand but

the thing is that even in being

positioned i had to accept what god was

doing in my life and after i finally

accepted what he was doing that’s when

he planted me

now being planted you you may have

watched the series planted not buried

but being planted is an uncomfortable

season because it’s unclear

and you can’t really see god’s plan for

your life and the truth is is that you

may not even be able to see the growth

that’s already happening in you see for

me when i was planted i had just

graduated with my masters i had all

these players to make all this money i

don’t know why everything is about money

but i always plan to make all this money

and the thing that god told me he said

daughter sit down i don’t want you to

work

and do you know what it feels like

when you’ve reached this achievement

when you’ve you’ve gotten this certain

standard of success and you have to

explain to your family that god just

wants you to be obedient and trust him

you see obedience doesn’t make sense to

everybody else but for somebody out

there god is calling you to be obedient

even if it seems like it’s crazy so

while you are planted your job is to

remain

because the thing is when we start

having doubts and hesitations while

we’re planted what that really reveals

is what we’ve been anchored to the whole

time

when we don’t want to let go when

there’s a certain tension

that’s when you know oh i wasn’t

anchored in my faith

i was anchored in their thoughts about

me

i wasn’t anchored in god i was anchored

in my own identity and who i thought

that i was going to be

but you know what as i remained planted

i started to unexpectedly produce

you see because in less than one year i

grew more than i ever thought i would

i knew i shouldn’t have prayed that

prayer yo i said lord bless me indeed

and he did

in less than one year i got a new job i

got a new place to live and i became a

whole wife with a whole

husband he’s sitting right over there

but you know what what that spelled out

to me was responsibilities

and if i’m being honest

all of the blessing that god had given

me it made me feel like i didn’t know

who i was anymore

like it was just too much for me to

handle

but you know what when god blesses us

when he answers those prayers when we

produce and keep producing

that means that we recognize our need

for him more than ever before

so even as you’re producing i invite you

to remain you see all remain means is

having an intimate relationship with

christ that produces the fruit of the

spirit the joy the peace the patience

the kindness the goodness the gentleness

the faithfulness and the self-control

so if you remember at the beginning of

my message i said raise your hand if you

ever wanted to be grown so you could get

up out of your parents house

i don’t blame you because that’s what

culture teaches us

culture teaches us that being grown or

being free means getting out of the

house but what kingdom culture says is

that when we remain in christ

that is when we can experience true

freedom

so my only point for you today is to

just

remain

no matter where you are in the grief of

growth or this growing process i just

want to let you know that there is grace

for your growth

that christ is right there smackdown in

the middle of it if you would just

remain so whether you’re being

positioned and you feel like you can’t

do what everyone else is doing whether

you’re being planted and you feel like

you’re buried whether you’re producing

and you have so much fruit but you don’t

know how to steward over it god is

inviting you to remain

because by remaining that is how we

experience true transformation in christ

in tc family

that

is how i’m healing from growth

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hello tc nation

i’m pastor barbara littlejohn and i’m

healing from walking in fear

yes your girl has been walking in fear

fear is false evidence appearing real

a feeling of anxiety concerning the

outcome of something

it’s the dominant spirit of this day and

age

society is saturated with fear people

are worried about their jobs they’re

worried about their health and their

future

i’ve always been strong and independent

handling life’s challenges with much

confidence but on january 26

of 2020

i

witnessed and walked in fear like never

before

fears of physical challenges in the form

of a brain bleed

having the covet itself

which led me to isolation

separation and even causing me fears of

being irrelevant

obsolete

and somewhat antiquated

listen guys

fear

is a spirit

it acts like a magnet attracting

whatever we fear

it’s an oppressive spirit it’s not a

feeling or an emotion

fear is not given by god

according to second timothy 1 and 7 god

says that god has not given us the

spirit of fear but of power

love and a sound mind

so i want to encourage you during these

days of uncertainty

it is important to identify and deal

with the fears you must deal with them

because if you don’t you will not remain

anchored in god nor in his promises

isaiah 41 and 10 tells us this

there is no need to fear

for i am your god

i’ll give you strength

i’ll help you

i’ll hold you steady and keep a firm

grip on you

so i have questions for you today tc

nation

how many of you

are living your lives fearing what might

happen because the enemy of fear keeps

pulling you back like a magnet

making what appears real to be real

job in chapter 3

it we see this story

job has everything like many of us he

lacks nothing

but

he can’t enjoy what he has because he’s

too busy making sacrifices

for fear of what might happen

the enemy’s magnet was drawing job far

far away from the shores of faith in god

and faith in his promises

job 3 and 25 tells us this job kept

saying the worst of my fears has come

upon me

what i’ve dreaded

most has happened

let me tell you this

fear

will cause you to drift

yes it will it will cause you to drift

the physical challenges that i was

experiencing thinking of a stroke

the thoughts of being irrelevant

obsolete

outdated

of my necks

all was housed in the present chaos that

was brought on by a pandemic

i found myself

drifting

and again i will tell you this that’s

what fear will cause you to do

instead of focusing on the positives

the enemy was amplifying all of the

negatives

all of my fears began and was becoming a

picture in my mind

i even begin to fear

dying

and again all of that because fear

causes us to drift

so i want to tell you this

when fear knocks on your door

you let faith answer it

if you have faith according to the word

of god as a grain of mustard seed you

can speak to the mountain of fear you

can speak to the mountain of doubt and

they’ve got to go says the spirit

hallelujah so how how do you handle your

fears come on tc nation i want you to

write this in the chat

face your fears

face them look them dead in the eye and

say psalms 34 and 4.

god says this i sought the lord and he

heard me and he delivered me from all of

my fears

it is not natural or uncommon to

experience fear

but what’s not normal is for you to be

driven by your fears

see job was driven by his fear the more

he looked at his children’s behavior the

more he feared the more he feared the

more he sacrificed you cannot allow fear

to drive you or to push you why because

fear brings torment

first john 4 18 tells us this there is

no fear in love but perfect love will

cast out fear

why because fear brings torment

it brings torment it was tormenting job

so i want to give you my first point

here

i want you to write this down first of

all you must a second point brother is

that you also have to expose your fears

yes you’ve got to expose it tell on it

do it like in second kings elijah’s

servant young man woke up in the morning

out of his second king six and he saw

the syrian army surrounded them and he

feared

but this is what he did he exposed his

fear he went to his master and he says

master look we are surrounded by the

enemies

and elisha did what a leader would do he

prayed for his servant he prayed god

open his eyes so he can see so he can

see that they that be with us is more

than they that be with them

and so the young man saw through his

eyes

so we’ve got to remember this

remember fear is like a bully

it just keeps coming back it just keeps

knocking at your door but you cannot

ignore fear hoping it will disappear

you cannot even begin to think

that if fear comes you can stand still

and not do anything and it will not

affect you

you can’t make enough sacrifices that

will cause fear to leave you

so this is why you must remember this

thirdly

change your focus

change your focus begin to visualize god

as a mountain and your fear as a

molehill

and the closer you get to god the

smaller your fears will become

amen so i want to ask you this question

what are you fearing

what is it that’s tormenting you

is it losing a job

is it the thought of bad health

is it a lack of finances family problem

issues

maybe you are fearing aging

maybe it’s the school loans

maybe you have the fear of what is my

next second corinthians 10 and 5 tells

us this

cast down imagination and every high

thing that exalt itself against the

knowledge of god and bring it into

captivity every thought to the obedience

of god’s words

in my closing i want to tell you to do

not fix your eyes on the things that are

seen but fix your eyes on the things

that are not seen because those things

that are seen are temporary but the

things that are unseen are eternal

so tc nation remember this in god’s

hands the enemy’s intended evil becomes

god’s eternal good i’m pastor barbara

littlejohn and that’s how i am

overcoming my fears

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what is up tc nation

man my name is chad and help i am

healing from lies of inadequacy

when i first heard about healing from

i’ll be honest with you i was like

asking god god where am i healing from

where am i hurting at

but then when i dug deeper into it and

let god speak to me he showed me exactly

where i’m healing from see healing is

just the process of becoming sound or

healthy again

you don’t always have to be hurting to

still be healing

but let me just say this lies of

inadequacy was where i’ve been hurt

because i have a past like a lot of

people matter of fact like everybody if

we’re being honest we’ve all made

mistakes but isn’t it like the enemy to

lie to you because inadequacy simply

means

not good enough for your purpose

see the enemy wanted me to feel like i

wasn’t good enough for the full purpose

god had for me oh see i’ve known since i

was 14 years old i could be used by god

and god would use me but the enemy made

me feel like he couldn’t use me to my

full extent because of what i’ve done

i see it 14 years old i gave my life to

christ in my mother’s bedroom and i’ll

never forget it my mom’s life was

radically changed and here i am at 14

watching my mom’s life change and it

would change mine

but what you don’t know is that at 12

years old i was already addicted to

pornography

i did not know what it would do over the

next 15 plus years to my life if i did i

would have ran immediately but see

addiction simply means the dependency

upon something mentally or physically to

the point where it alters your life

see my dependency was in the wrong place

but i didn’t know that as a teenager i

know that i gave my life to christ and i

had a calling on my life and someone

spoke over my life and i knew god could

use me but what

about my mess

see my addiction i wished i could say

was just watching something online every

once in a while but that’s where it

started

but then it became a lifestyle that

would begin to unravel over the next few

years

it would begin to cause me to isolate

even though i was loud and outgoing i

was really doing that to cover up from

having to tell you what i was really

struggling with

see it would cause me to begin to get

hurt and hard-hearted it would cause me

to get numb to where i couldn’t even be

intimate with god because why would i be

because he wouldn’t take me where i am

another lie of inadequacy

see the reality of it is when i finally

stepped in to this life that god had

given me i knew there was something

special i knew i could be set free

people have been telling me all my life

god brings freedom

and that sounded great but how do i get

out of this mess

see i was destructing everything that i

touched see i was bringing other people

into my mess one of the things you need

to know is that sin has friends you

bring people into your heart hurt people

hurt people

and so since i wasn’t walking in my

purpose i wasn’t going to let you walk

in yours

so i’m destroying things as i touch them

and then i would get married and i would

walk this into my marriage and it would

begin to unravel time and time again the

same fight the same cycle the same

struggle

and the whole time i know god you have

something for me but i can’t get past

this mess

to the point where i finally realized

i’d had enough

it had done enough destruction but man

could i really

tell everybody what i was struggling

with

could i really get to the place where i

could share with my spouse with my wife

what i’m dealing with could i would she

handle it right what would i lose what

would i suffer could i could i get

kicked out of the church would i would i

not be able to preach anymore would i

would i not be able to do the little bit

of purpose that i’ve already started to

do like like god will you quit using me

when i finally let go of what i’m

struggling with

i was afraid of the consequence

but see it took me in that moment to

realize i was already suffering from a

consequence

see the consequence of holding it in

already had me bound up it already had

me broken it already had me hurting

other people it already had my marriage

falling apart see the problem was i was

already struggling with a consequence

but i couldn’t be free

i had to speak up

i had to finally get to a place where i

realized i was going to have a

consequence either way

so if i’m going to have a consequence

why not be free

why not be free

and so i finally decided i was going to

let it out

can i share something with you the sin

has consequences it’s the byproduct of

sin

but freedom is the byproduct of jesus

christ

and when i finally realized that i could

switch my dependency from that to christ

when i finally started leaning into him

i’d like to say that it just all went

away but that’s not true because it was

a progression and still is today

but when i tell you i finally turned my

dependency to him oh there were

consequences

oh i suffered a lot of consequences i

had a lot of setbacks i had a lot of

stuff that i had to go to counseling to

get through i had a lot of pain a lot of

hurt i had to acknowledge a lot of

things i had to apologize for a lot of

things i had to fix things i had to stay

steady you want to be real real i had to

put locks on my television so i couldn’t

watch nothing later on in life you want

to be real there’s consequences

you may be going through a divorce right

now because you had an affair and that

is a consequence

you may be a drug addict and lost your

entire family that’s a consequence

you may be in prison right now for the

rest of your life can i tell you that’s

just a consequence

because it is a flat out lie

if you don’t think you’re good enough

for god

he says in his word that you are his

masterpiece

and that he had plans for you in advance

for you to do and those plans and that

purpose never changed because you and i

made mistakes that’s why he sent jesus

to the cross

he sent him to the cross so that when

you and i make mistakes there’s there’s

healing there’s restoration there’s

cleansing there’s forgiveness

and the bible says that when you and i

repent

that god is faithful

and just to cleanse us from all

unrighteousness

all

unrighteousness

you may be living in a consequence

but don’t you ever let the enemy tell

you there’s not freedom

because there is 100 freedom and your

purpose still stands today just like it

did when you were created

i want to read one verse to you

romans 6 20 through 23 and it says this

as long as you did what you felt like

doing

ignoring god you didn’t have to bother

with right thinking or write living or

write anything for that matter

do you call that a free life

you didn’t have to bother with right

thinking or write living or write

anything for that matter do you call

that a free life i can tell you i didn’t

what did you get out of it nothing

you’re proud of now where did you get

where did it get you a dead

end but now that you have found that you

don’t have to listen to sin tell you

what to do and have discovered the

delight of listening to god tell you

what a surprise

a whole healed put together life right

now

with more and more life on the way

work hard for sin your whole life and

your pension is death but god’s gift is

real life eternal life delivered by

christ

jesus i’m telling somebody on the other

side of that screen or in this room

today that god only has real life for

you

god only has freedom for you a whole

healed put together life right

now

set free from whatever you’re struggling

with

and this

is how i’m healing from a lie that i’m

not good enough

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what’s up transformation nation my name

is anthony help

i’m healing from offense

now we all know what it feels like to

have a fence

perhaps we’re offended because

chick-fil-a is closed on sundays

or maybe we’re offended because at

burger king you can’t truly have it your

way

or maybe you’re offended because

somebody pushed you off one of the

crates during the crate challenge

or maybe the ex-spouse walked on you

and they walked out on you

and that parent may have never

acknowledged you

that parent may have not showed up to a

birthday party and you’re battling

internally because of

offense someway somehow

we all know what it feels like to have a

fence

well family this journey started for me

when i was younger i was going to a

family function i’m talking about one of

those good family functions where you

could smell the hot dogs and hamburgers

on the grill

you could hear the frankie beverly

amazed playing in the background yeah

one of those functions on a hot summer

day

but as i’m walking into this family

member’s house i hear something that i

would never want to hear again in my

life

i heard my own family

talking negatively about my parents

i heard things that i would never want

to hear again but even in that moment

what they said allowed my heart to

adjust to the label that they placed on

my parents so now i begin to speak the

same things that they spoke over my

parents i began to speak doubt i began

to not affirm myself i verbally

disqualified myself and my mind

immediately goes to scripture because in

luke 6 45 it says that out of the

abundance of the heart

does his mouth speak

and why this gives me

biblical confirmation that what resides

in my heart determines the outcome of my

language i have a question today tc

nation i need you in the in the comments

section to help me

what do you do

when offense

is not your fault

what do you do

when offense is not your fault because

truth be told we sometimes have no

control over what we are exposed to we

don’t plan to walk into a season of

people lying on us we don’t plan to walk

into a season where parents are not

talking to us we don’t plan to walk into

a season blaming ourself from things but

i need you right now in the chat to type

this i forgive me that’s right type it

right now i forgive me i forgive myself

for holding on to offense i forgive

myself for harboring this exposure why

am i forgiving myself for harboring the

exposure because sometimes the wrong

exposure can turn into bad roots

yeah naturally bad roots in the heart

they turn into disease

but spiritually bad roots control the

tongue

question for you family how many times

have we allowed our route to speak for

us

because roots

legitimately now they have two main

functions

food storage is number one

root store food that lasts during a

dormant period

what do you go to during your dormant

season

what do you return back to when your

season is not moving

what do you depend on when you are low

and should the statement be free now

that you are what you eat perhaps we

have so much offense and anger and rage

because that’s all we have stored in us

perhaps we are so angry right now and we

cuss our family members out and we don’t

want to go around anymore and we use

them as excuses to act ungodly because

that’s what we have stored up

but watch this even because it’s stored

up that means that number two it has to

be anchored in you

now everybody we’ve been giving god

praise as a family and as a church

because our theme is being anchored this

year but somebody was just like me a few

months ago whose chains had them bound

by the hands and they couldn’t lift

their hands and give god praise because

of what they were anchored in instead of

helping them produce it suffocated them

so now i cannot celebrate being anchored

because i can’t even speak it suffocates

me so bad

but i dare you to type in the chat right

now

i’m going to check my anchor that’s

right you have to learn to check your

anchor because sometimes what you’re

anchored in may have a defect that you

don’t know about

but can i tell somebody something today

that to begin the process of healing

and uprooting of the bad roots needs to

happen

but it takes sacrifice

it’s not easy

because sometimes it feels good

to stay offended

sometimes it feels good to walk around

with the chip on your shoulder

sometimes it feels good to want to come

up to somebody and just smack another

face and in the hood that i come from

sometimes you may just want to steal off

on somebody and it feels good right

but i learned that in order to make a

sacrifice

it takes work

but when i think about sacrifice

i think about jesus

acts 5 and 30 says that the god of our

fathers raised jesus

whom ye slew and hanged on a tree

the only time that you see a cross in

those times is when it was time for

something to die because the cross is a

place of sacrifice it’s a place of

bloodshed and before jesus died this

place of sacrifice was also an altar

god did not desire things that were

living he told them sacrifice thanks to

me that were dead can i tell you this

morning that it’s time for you to

sacrifice the things that need to die

that’s in you you may have to sacrifice

offense you may have to sacrifice that

rage you may have to nail those issues

to the cross up every time that i sit

down and devoting

i’m nailing an issue to the cross every

time that i sit down in prayer i’m

nailing an issue to the cross i wish

that you would right now in the comments

type i’m going to nail these issues to

the cross up whatever my pain is i’m

nailing it if i got to see a therapist

i’m nailing it because somebody has to

understand out there in tc nation that

the majority of the time i’ve been

spending an offense up but this day i’m

no longer going to suffer in offense

nailed the issues to the cross

i had to nail everything that i had

it took every ounce of blood that i had

on my body it took every tear it took

every amount

of pain

and agony and turmoil

but if jesus christ can die

on the cross for my sins

the least i can do is pay him homage

by nailing my issues

to the cross

my name is anthony

and i’m healing

from offense

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what is up tc nation my name is margo

and i am healing from anxiety

two years ago i was living in north

carolina working at a church leading a

young adult’s ministry in a student

ministry and one night i was at a

university doing a ministry event

and i came home

and i suddenly found myself

somewhere that i’ve never been before

i experienced my full first full-blown

anxiety attack

i found myself on the floor

not being able to breathe

gasping for air

shaking

losing feeling in my face and in my

hands with a rapid heartbeat

get feeling dizzy and lightheaded my

emotions uncontrollable

and it was really intense

but the hard part is it didn’t just

happen that one time two years ago no

this started happening over and over and

over again and as the weeks and the

months went by this had become my daily

norm

every single night i was having anxiety

attacks like this

before i knew it

i realized i become stuck in anxiety

i wonder where you feel stuck today

what have you been experiencing

battling

fighting through

struggling

over and over again

it’s not that you want to be there it’s

just you don’t know how to get out of it

because if you could get out of it let’s

be honest you wouldn’t be stuck

do you feel stuck in depression

do you feel stuck in lust

what about addiction

do you feel stuck in numbness

anger

self-hatred bitterness where do you feel

stuck

see the thing about getting stuck

is that at some point

you settle wow

see at some point

i got to the point i don’t know when it

switched i don’t know how many times i

got so discouraged that i got to the

point where i started saying this every

time an anxiety attack came i said

it’s okay

it’s okay it’s okay maybe you’ve been

telling yourself that that it’s okay

that you’re there

in fact we live in a world that let’s be

honest it says it’s okay that you’re

there and i’m here to fight for some

people to tell you

it is not okay that you’re there

it is not okay that you and i have

settled

in being stuck in bondage

it is not okay and here’s the good news

of the gospel that i have for you today

here’s the good news that we actually

can have as a hope that is truly an

anchor for our soul

because of what jesus has done

we do not have to stay stuck

and we don’t have to stay stuck

because you and i

we have a helper

you really do have a helper and here’s

the thing about this helper this helper

will not just help you to cope

this helper will not just help you to

feel better about it or to find ways to

rationalize it this helper will do what

all the things that you have tried to

get you unstuck cannot do because they

could only help he could heal

this helper is a healer and here’s how i

know this in john chapter 16 verse 7 we

see that jesus is about to leave the

earth see he’s already come he’s laid

his life down on the cross to save you

and i from separation from god he rose

from the dead to set us free from sin

and bondage and darkness forever and

he’s back revealing himself to all of

his disciples and he says this

it’s for your benefit that i’m gonna

leave

now let’s take a moment let’s be real if

jesus walked in the room right now you’d

be really excited wouldn’t you i can’t

tell you how many times i’ve been in

worship and i thought if jesus would

just walk in the room right now

maybe he could touch me and heal me and

i wouldn’t be stuck

see jesus said it’s good that i’m gonna

leave because i’m sending you my helper

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he sends us his helper

and here’s the craziest part

in ephesians 1 13 it says that the

moment you believe in jesus you receive

your helpers see the good news of the

gospel friends is that we no longer have

to figure out how to come into the

presence of god but the presence of god

has come into us

you

have a helper

you have such a loving father that did

not want you to go a moment without help

to heal

you know what’s so crazy is i didn’t

realize until the holy spirit reminded

me the other night

that every time i was in an anxiety

attack

every single time i was gasping for air

and thinking in my mind am i going to be

stuck in this forever

i would cry out this one thing

someone

please

come help me

someone please come help me

someone please come help me

and you’ve been crying that out

you’ve been asking someone please

help me to not live depressed anymore

help me to not stay in addiction anymore

help me to not be so numb not be this

angry person not be so lustful someone

please come help me

and friends my god has been healing me

as he’s been showing me

that i really do have a helper

you really do have

a helper

and here’s the good news about this

helper he’s not only the same spirit

that rose jesus from the dead

he’s the same spirit that led jesus out

of the grave

this helper wants to take you and lead

you out of every single grave that you

feel stuck in today see because we have

a helper we don’t have to stay stuck in

bondage we can walk in healing today you

can walk in healing today

you have a helper

the question is will you let your helper

heal you

my name is margo and i am healing from

anxiety

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what up tc nation my name is freddie

ramirez and i want to talk to you on a

topic that i would like to call

help

i’m healing

from not healing at all

now i want to talk to you today who feel

just like my sister just said stuck

see i feel like that’s the topic that

we’re on right now because many of us

are watching this man we’ve watched the

whole series we’ve read the books we’ve

gone to the conferences we’ve gone to

the five a.m morning prayers yes i’m

talking to you this morning

you’ve got the prayer you’ve got the oil

you’ve ordered everything online to get

you unstuck

and to get you healed but you don’t feel

like it’s working you say freddie i’ve

prayed

i’ve asked god god help me heal me take

me out of where i am at because i can’t

take this

anymore

but i want to tell you something today

and i want to get raw and honest for a

moment

and i want to tell you this if one

prayer

is all that you needed to heal

from your pain

none of us would be here right now

if one prayer is all that you needed to

be saved from depression and anxiety

then there wouldn’t be any depression or

anxiety left on this earth

but the truth is that healing

takes work and man

is it uncomfortable

listen i know

what it’s like

to feel stuck in my healing process i

know

what it’s like to be in the church

battling with rejection i know what it’s

like to be serving in the church

to be going and serving and preaching

and still

leaving depressed

but the truth is

god wants to take you out where you are

at

the truth is that his blood is worth

listen do you think that jesus sacrifice

was not good enough to heal you from

your deepest wounds are you really that

lost to the sacrifice of our savior it’s

not enough

some of you may be feeling like hey like

i don’t know where i’m at in my life i

don’t know if i will ever get better

i’ve prayed i’ve done everything that i

can

new year

same all me

same old issues

listen i know what it’s like but i want

to tell you something tc nation

the lord started taking me

through my healing process and the first

thing he did he took me to john chapter

8 where it says

so if the son

sets you free

you are truly free and listen i have to

be honest with y’all for a moment

i remember when the lord took me to that

verse i was just like well it looks like

jesus you don’t want me free

like you want to set everybody else free

but not me

but i want to change the question for a

moment i want to change the game i want

us to change our perspective

from asking god will you ever

heal me to how does it look like

when the sun

begins to set me free

and the lord started taking me through

these four pointers that i want to share

with you right now the first one is

prayer

now listen you don’t need the whole

neighborhood to pray for you

you just need two or more right because

bible says where two or more are

gathered there

he is

sometimes we’re too prideful and listen

i’m gonna speak to y’all ministers that

are watching right now because we

ministers we can be the most prideful

out of a whole bunch because we think

we’re superman and we think we’re wonder

woman we don’t need prayer but the truth

is we’re the first ones need to be in

line

for prayer

open up your heart humble yourself and

ask for prayer don’t stick it with just

yourself don’t stick the fight with just

you

and the second thing the lord began to

teach me is to learn to say it out loud

yes i said

say it out loud listen

this is the part

where god begins to remove the duct tape

that you’ve placed on your serious

wounds

god doesn’t want any more band-aids on

your heart he wants to give you a new

one

and when you begin to speak out your

pain

god begins to heal you and ash he heals

you you’re not done

you’re at just halfway and god takes you

to the next process which is teaching

you to change your mind

listen before

you win the battle of your life you’ve

got to win the battle of your mind

how can we say that god is our strength

but we don’t even know his word

how can we say

that god is for me and that i have all

confidence in him with our bible is

picking up dust

god wants to take you to the process

where you begin to pick up your word and

it’s not just a book anymore but now

it’s part of you

that’s when you begin to walk out your

healing and as we heal

god reminds us

that he is our strength and as

you begin to do that i want to give you

the final point

the finish line

where you know that you are here what is

it that i need to do next

repeat

wait what

repeat that’s right i said repeat

because the truth is that as long as we

are on this earth there’s always going

to be pain

but i have good

news for you today tc nation

you may not be able to avoid the pain

but the pain can no longer hold you

i said the pain can no longer keep you

bound although pain may come it must set

you free

although pain and suffering may endure

for the night

my word says

the joy

shall come in the morning you don’t have

to go to sleep in pain but you can go to

sleep in confidence

that jesus is with you

repeat it as many times as you need to

do it

and ladies and gentlemen as you begin to

heal as we all begin to heal

this is how we know that we are truly

healing

from not healing at all

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what’s up transformation church

transformation nation my name is tim and

i’m healing from pride so some of you

just heard me say pride and immediately

you said to yourself that that does not

apply to you funny thing is i didn’t

think it applied to me either as a

matter of fact i got a little prideful

when the holy spirit was requiring me to

communicate on pride for real i was like

lord can you give me something else to

communicate about he was like now you

need to be able to communicate on pride

see when we think about pride we think

about the big thing so somebody being

loud and obnoxious and arrogant but i’m

more concerned about the little things

because big things are little things in

process

and if we are not careful uh pride will

come in and we will experience what we

want and not truly what god intended so

let me give us this definition of pride

so pride is satisfying and the

commitment to satisfying self

more than satisfying god

okay so we have a culture code of being

hot humble open and transparent so i’m

gonna be really hot i think i’m one of

the most humble people you’ll ever come

in contact with

i just do and the holy spirit was

speaking some things and revealing

things to me and he was like tim you’re

really prideful y’all i was like what

i was taken back i was flabbergasted i

was taking a breath i was like what in

the bell boozle men is going on here he

was like yeah tim you’re prideful i was

like lord what is this pride in me that

you speak of he was like oh you know how

when you go to a restaurant or somewhere

and you receive bad customer service and

you think you have to give somebody a

piece of your mind i say yes i do he

said that’s prideful

i was like okay lord you’re on the road

right now see we got a culture code of

faith here which says that we had faith

in god faith for miracles and faith in

people i had faith in god i had faith

for miracles but i lost faith in people

because i really didn’t trust people

like that and the holy spirit said tim

that’s more pride he said because you’re

holding on to things that you should

have let go a long time ago

and some of you might be thinking you’re

thinking to yourself right now tim i

heard what you said but you gave two

examples and none of those applied to me

hey i’m not even mad at that but just

maybe

maybe just maybe you’re on social media

and you’re living a life online that you

don’t live offline

that’s pride i don’t really know what

they call that today but when i was

growing up we would say you stunned in

other words

you acting like you more than what you

are it’s called pride the funny thing is

is that even for us as we’re healing

from pride we’re not the only ones to be

healing from pride some of the most

influential people in the bible had

pride issues

in second samuel chapter 11 it’s about a

story of a man named david and a woman

named bathsheba and david was the king

of all of israel david loved god and god

loved david but david had some pride

issues david was so prideful he thought

he can kill a man take the man’s wife

have a baby with her and get away with

it with no consequences

prideful you might be thinking to

yourself right now yeah that’s that’s a

bit extreme but we all have some type of

pride that we’re dealing with and the

holy spirit was like tim you just have

some prideful tendencies that i just

need to show you he said and i need you

to stop i was like lord i’ll be glad to

stop but i didn’t know i started he said

yes you did start and you need to stop i

said okay well what does that mean he

said the first thing you need to do and

stop and he said you need to surrender

surrender is not a one-time event it is

a lifestyle

every day i wake up there is something i

have to surrender to the lord every day

you wake up there’s going to be

something that you have to surrender to

the lord see here’s the thing about

david david had thoughts and feelings

towards bathsheba that he not had not

surrendered

see david’s lack of surrender it killed

a man a marriage and a baby just like he

killed goliath all in one shot

and the holy spirit he started speaking

to me he said tim you’ve got some areas

you have not surrendered he said you

have unforgiveness in your heart that

you have not surrendered to me and i

need you to surrender those things so

the first thing is stopping we have to

surrender the second step is we have to

tell somebody

david didn’t tell anybody he was feeling

bathsheba like that

had he told somebody somebody probably

could have said hey king i don’t think

that’s a good idea

let’s go

in a different direction but david he

showed a commitment to satisfy himself

more than satisfying god

the funny thing is is that david uh and

bathsheba ended up having a son named

solomon and the crazy thing is is that

what david struggled with in private

solomon displayed in public

see david and private tried to take

bathsheba and let me do this on the low

solomon said i ain’t doing nothing on

the low he got hundreds of wives and

concubines so we just got to be able to

tell somebody because if you’re not

careful the thing that you’re trying to

heal from it’ll pass down from

generation to generation to generation

so you got to be able to tell somebody

here’s the third thing we got to do

you got to open up

my wife can attest to this i’m the most

open i have ever been with people in my

entire life

but i gotta be hot there are still some

parts in me that aren’t open because i

don’t know who i can fully trust to

protect what’s closed

so there’s still some things in me that

ain’t fully open and i was telling the

lord i was like lord you just know i’m

private i don’t like people in my

business i’m real low-key and he said

tim you’re not private i said but yes i

am he said no you’re not he said you’re

not private he said your pride vet

he said and what you’ve done is you’ve

mistaken your privacy for pride the sea

and david allowed privacy to get in the

way by killing a man and taking his wife

and it’s so so ironic that the baby that

david and bathsheba had together the

baby was born but then it ended up dying

which means if you do not stop pride

will kill your baby before it’s fully

developed

here’s the fourth thing he told me he

said tim you have to place your trust in

god

david had to place his trust in god

because after the first baby died it

took a whole lot of trust to say lord i

know i messed it up the first time

i know i was pride for the first time

but i’m gonna give it another go anyway

it takes a lot of trust in god to be

able to do that i don’t know where you

are

in your trust with god but i’m just

telling you god is saying i want you to

place your trust in me

so many times we often want an in-will

result with an out-of-wheel response

that’s what we want like we want to be

out of god’s will doing what we want to

do but we want him to respond as if

we’ve been in his will the entire time

so i don’t know who i’m talking to but

i’m telling you you have to surrender

you have to tell somebody

you have to open up

and you have to place your trust in god

and that’s how i’m healing from pride

transformation nation can you give it up

for all of our seven and seven

oh come on give it up give it up give it

up

listen listen i don’t know about you but

that just impacted and challenged me in

such an incredible way and um genuinely

just i want to say thank you to each one

of you um your authenticity being able

to expose things um being open with your

story facing fears all those different

things um not only did it uh i say thank

you for going through it but thank you

on behalf of everyone who’s watching and

i don’t know where you’re watching from

or what you’re going through or what you

may be experiencing but no doubt no

matter who you are and where you are you

are in one of these seats you’re in a

space where um you would like the

sentence to be help i’m healed from like

that’s the easier place sometimes in

church is let me tell you about 20 years

ago when this happened and i was fine

and everything’s okay but no god wants

to deal with the thing you’re healing

from god wants to deal with the thing

that’s still in process

i don’t know where you are or what it is

but today um i just want to give you an

opportunity to do what each and every

single one of these persons did

they exposed the places that they were

hurting in that’s really the whole goal

of this series is not even to get you to

a place to where you watch five weeks

and you say great i don’t deal with

depression anymore great i don’t deal

with fear anymore no no the goal would

be is that you would simply just open up

you see so many times in church we focus

on the goal is i’m going to change me

i’m going to figure out i need six steps

and i need to read these scriptures and

at the end of it i’m going to be healed

no sometimes it’s just a process that

starts by saying you know what if you

just open yourself up you see that the

real truth is is that transforming you

is outside of your jurisdiction you

can’t change anything about you if you

could change your life you would have

already done it but all we do is when we

are hot the bible says this we overcome

by the blood of the lamb

and the words of our testimony

i want to invite you today no matter

where you are to simply just open

yourself up to transformation to open

yourself up to say help i i’m i’m still

healing from this area i’m healing from

fear i’m healing from from lies of

inadequacy i’m hearing healing from

whatever it may be

i’m believing that as you open up god

will start

the healing process there’s something

that we say here at transformation

church and it’s this god cannot bless

who you pretend to be

god can’t heal the areas that you act

like aren’t there

and i want to take a moment right now as

we close and i want to pray over two

groups of people the first group is

you’re in process you feel like i’m

still healing from something and i don’t

know what to do i don’t know how to get

through it i don’t know what i’m going

to do i just want to play pray a prayer

over you right now if you say you know

what that’s me i’m watching online and i

have an area that i’m still healing from

i want you to type right now in the chat

say that’s me right now all in the chat

there’s tons of people type say that’s

me i’m still healing from something say

that is me i want to invite you right

now if you just bow your heads wherever

you are and close your eyes lord god i

thank you you see every single person

that just acknowledged that they’re

still healing you seeing every person

that just said that’s me you see every

person that still has pain that still

has wounds and lord i thank you that

your sweet

presence lord god your love your grace

your mercy is invading their hearts

right now lord jesus i thank you that

you are you are replacing lies with

truth right now lord god that literally

there are people who may have even

struggled with something that was just

mentioned i thank you that your spirit

is comforting them lord god and i pray

that as they expose it lord god you

would begin to heal it lord god i pray

for your supernatural power and your

spirit that would begin to move in

people that they would begin to admit

that they’re hurting they will begin to

admit that they’re not okay lord i thank

you for the the things that have kept

their mouth shut the fear of

consequences lord god lord i thank you

lord jesus that freedom is happening

today

with every head’s still about every eye

still closed there’s a group of you here

and as we talk about i’m healing from

and even anthony he talked about a

sacrifice that was made he talked about

there there was a man and his name was

jesus and you see jesus he came to this

earth and he lived a sinless and perfect

life for 30 years and and in three years

he did ministry and and then at a moment

he died on a cross for you and for me

you say charles why what what does the

cross represent i know sometimes we

think it’s just a necklace or a tattoo

but what this cross represents is you

see before this moment you and i were

separated from god before this moment

there were all these rules and you had

to do these rituals and you had to make

sure you entered in the presence of god

right and all these things and what

happens is the sad truth is even though

christ died sometimes we live as if he

didn’t you see the church for years has

told you that you still got to do

rituals and you got to make sure you

sound right and you look right and don’t

do anything but the truth of the gospel

is

god loves you right where you are

because of jesus you don’t have to stop

doing bad things you just surrender your

heart to him

wherever you right now if you say you

know what i i don’t i don’t know if i

died today or i’m not sure where my

relationship with god is i want to

invite you into relationship with jesus

it’s the most beautiful decision you

could ever make you don’t have to change

everything about you but you just

surrender to him he is so

in love with you

regardless of what you’ve heard

regardless of what people have told you

regardless of what you’ve seen on social

media he loves you so much and all he

wants is a relationship with you

and what i’m going to do is i’m going to

ask the the team in 7-7 to repeat after

me and everybody watching online i’m

going to pray a prayer and i’m going to

ask that you would repeat it after me

and i’m believing that when you pray

this prayer the bible says you believe

in your heart confess with your mouth

that jesus is lord you shall be saved in

this moment you will experience the love

and compassion like your heavenly father

like never before i want to invite you

to pray this prayer with me if you say

that’s me i want to accept jesus just

repeat after me say dear heavenly father

thank you for loving me

dear jesus

i admit

i’ve made mistakes

save me

change me

transform me

in jesus name i pray

amen transformation church and

transformation nation can we celebrate

oh come on

listen if you just made that choice that

is the best decision you could ever make

listen your future is now secure in

christ and we are so so proud of you

listen if you take a moment and text the

word save to the number that’s on the

screen we want to send you some

resources we just want to help you on

this journey of following jesus i’m

believing that this is the first day of

your brand new life in christ listen um

again i just want to say thank you for

joining us for service today and uh man

as each one of these people did i want

to encourage you to be real with where

you’re at be real with what you’re going

through because i’m believing that your

anointing your healing it is all wrapped

up in your authenticity listen we love

you so much and we’re so grateful that

you joined us today would you go out and

live a transformed life we’ll see

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