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amazing word god bless you
i’m so excited about what god wants to
do tonight and activate every night has
been so unique and so special and i
don’t doubt that this night will be
exactly in that same rhythm and flow
i’ve been studying and praying and i’m
going to do something a little bit
differently than i usually do usually i
take some consecutive scriptures and i
really kind of unpacked what i believe
god was saying
this time i kind of want to pick some
scriptures
they’re all in the same chapter
they’re all related
but there are some pivotal themes that i
think are important for us to recognize
so i’m going to be in psalm 51 and i
just have three scriptures
the first scripture is
verse 6. i’m going to start with verse
six
then i’m going to go to verse 10 and i’m
going to go to verse 13.
this psalm is a prayer of repentance
from david this is after the prophet
nathan comes and tells david that god
saw something he did i’m going to break
it down for you so that you understand
the power of it but first i want to
start with these scriptures
so verse 6 begins it says
behold
you desire truth in the inward parts
and in the hidden part
you will make me to know wisdom
and then in verse 10 it says create in
me a clean heart oh god and renew a
steadfast spirit within me we’ve heard
that scripture before over and over
again and verse 13 says then
i will teach transgressors your ways and
sinners shall be
converted to you
father god
there’s truly no one like you
and when you speak we have no choice
but to understand who you are and who we
are more clearly
it is my prayer that this would be a
moment just like that
that we would create space that allows
you to really permeate our thoughts our
excuses our distractions and that just
for a moment this would be an intimate
encounter with you father i turn myself
over to you and i said quite literally
have your way
i cannot do this without you as a matter
of fact i will not do this without you
and i have a feeling that when we come
together that there will be no choice
but for those who are receiving this
word to feel your presence to feel your
love to feel your peace and to fill a
womb
that is meant to birth the best versions
of them and so father we turn this
moment over to you and we say do that
thing that you do when you sit in a room
in jesus name i pray
amen
my subject
for those of you who like to take notes
is out of control
out of control i’ve been
thinking a lot about control especially
with us being in this you know
self-isolation
and one of the things that i am really
trying to navigate even within my own
household is still having some
element of control now and home are all
the same space work home and school are
now all this work home school and
restaurants are now all of the same
place and for me sometimes it can feel
like things in my house are literally
out of control
so kind of early on in this process i
realized that if i was going to make
this season work for me that i needed
one place that really felt organized and
in control and for me that has become
our bedroom and i told my husband this
is the space that i want to keep clean i
want to keep it organized i want this to
be the place that we come into after the
family room has been destroyed and the
kitchen has been torn up we come into
this room and this is the place of peace
and so i’ve been very intentional about
making sure that the room is clean
but the way my schedule is set up i
can’t like make it all the way clean the
way i know it’s supposed to be clean so
i’ve learned a trick
and this is my trick right so make the
bed if you make the bed that’s like 50
of the room being clean okay so i make
the bed in the morning then i take all
of the things that are laying around the
room pile them up in my arms throw them
in the closet i’ll talk to them later
okay the room has suddenly gone from
being chaos into being this place of
peace and tranquility and organization
my husband has been telling me for weeks
oh my gosh thank you so much for just
working so hard to keep the room clean
i’m i’m a he’s been picking up his stuff
he’s like let me get this off the floor
i know you worked so hard to keep the
room clean he doesn’t know that the
closet has all of these things piled up
in it it doesn’t matter the room is
clean that’s all he needs to know
then this weekend happened
this weekend i’m doing the girl’s hair
because now the the hair salon the
restaurants the school the work the home
it’s all the same thing i’m doing the
girl’s hair i’m right in the middle of
trying to finesse these cornrows when my
husband asked me for something problem
is what he’s looking for is in the
closet
the closet where i’ve been piling things
up that he doesn’t know about
so now i’m in a dilemma because my
dilemma is i can either stop finessing
this cornrow that i’ve been studying on
youtube for hours or i can dare to let
him go into the closet
so i let him go into the closet because
ain’t nobody spend all that time on
youtube to let these cornrows just fall
apart
so i just told him you know what it’s in
the closet if you look in the corner
it’s still in the gray bag you can find
it no problem and i’m waiting
i’m waiting for this moment when he
comes downstairs and he’s like hey what
is happening in the closet i’m there and
i’m waiting and i hear his footsteps
coming down the steps and i do one of
them big gulps and i’m like you know
what whatever you know how you start
preparing yourself for what you think is
going to happen and so you start telling
yourself what you’re going to tell that
person when they come listen i’m only
one person we have six children i’m a
chef i’m a man i’m a teacher i’m doing
all of these things i don’t have time to
make sure everything is speaking span
and do you not know that he comes
downstairs and he says nothing
about the mess that’s in the closet not
one word and now i’m really bugging
because i’m like i’ve been spending all
of this time trying to make sure that
the room doesn’t look a mess and you
walk into a mess and don’t even
recognize that it’s a mess
and that’s when i realized that all of
this time i had been trying to control
this atmosphere trying to make this
atmosphere be something that it really
was not what i lost in that moment was
not really control it was the illusion
of
control
you see
i would navigate this stuff being in the
closet seamlessly i would just pull the
clothes that were in my dresser and i
would walk around as if that issue that
mess that big pile of things i needed to
sort through didn’t exist at all and i
thought i was in control but the truth
is that it was really in control of me
because it was dictating how i showed up
in my own house
i wonder
how many of us
think that we are in control
but in reality all we have done is learn
to move around
the areas that we need to have
confronted
i was studying this message and and i
was praying and i just kept hearing
this message about control this message
about the illusion of control i was even
doing a podcast the other day and we
were talking about how this isolation
has not just robbed us of control what
it really robbed us of was the illusion
that we were in control in the first
place and i realized that so many of us
are unwilling to let go of the illusion
of control we have over our issues over
our bitterness over our brokenness
because we are too afraid to spend the
time
and develop the intimacy required to
really sort through
what became a mess
in our life
you see sometimes we talk about how
people only like the highlight reel on
instagram people only show their
highlight reels they only show the
things that make people want to
celebrate them and want to acknowledge
them but the truth is that the highlight
reel is not just for instagram there are
many of us who can only see ourselves
through our highlight reel
because we’re afraid that if we start to
look at those areas where we know we
need to grow in the areas where we know
we need god to touch our lives i need
you to help me navigate these
abandonment issues these trust issues my
pride my ego we don’t want to look at
those things so we only look at the
things that we do well and as i was
preaching last week i thought about this
notion of coach versus cheerleader and
if it’s okay i want to dig a little bit
deeper into what it means to really be
able to have a coach instead of just
having a cheerleader because if you only
look at what you’re good at and you only
celebrate what you do well then you will
end up becoming a lesser version of who
god has called you to be because the
truth is you are strong not in the areas
where you think you are strong but in
the areas where you must allow god to
step in and show you what he knows about
you so you never have to be a danger to
yourself again if you don’t decide to
start sorting through those things that
are dictating how you function and how
you show up and how you connect with
people then what’s going to happen is
you’re going to think that you are in
control of it because you fixed your
trust issues i just don’t trust anybody
i fixed the way that i have bitterness i
learned to roll my eyes whenever they
came into the room i think i’m in
control of it but the truth is that it
is now controlling me and i’m not going
to lie to you i came into tonight with
an agenda i came into tonight with the
agenda of making you open the door to
that part of your life to that part of
your spirit to that part of your soul
that you cannot bear to look at because
it doesn’t make you feel like a winner
and it doesn’t make you feel like you
have it all together but i came here not
to shame you but to let you know that
the secret sauce to who you are the
secret sauce i feel this prophetically
for somebody that your creativity is
laying dormant in your vulnerability and
you refuse to be vulnerable and i hear
god saying until you release yourself to
be everything that i’ve called you to be
not just the good things then you will
be emulating someone else’s work and
emulating someone else’s path instead of
taking that unique vulnerability that
god gave you and using it to channel it
into ideas and creativity that can
change the path that is ahead of you
sometimes we don’t want to look at those
areas of our life where we know we need
to have confrontation
because we’re afraid of the shame
connected to it
and the enemy makes us believe that
because we feel shamed and we don’t want
to feel shame then we shouldn’t address
it at all
but i want you to know that there is a
voice past shame
that if you dare to look past the shame
if you dare to look past what you did
and to start asking god why did i do it
to look past what you feel and to start
asking god show me how i ended up in
this situation in the first place then
he can show you how to transform it you
see change shame rather tries to keep
you chained i want to say that again
shame tries to keep you chained but
worship tries to change you your worship
from that place of vulnerability is
meant to change you your worship from
that place of knowing where your
weaknesses is you will never ever be as
strong as you can be until you recognize
where your weaknesses are that is in
business that is in relationships that
is in any area of your life you are only
as strong as the awareness of your
weaknesses while everyone else wants to
know where you’re strong when someone
really wants to be in relationship with
you what they want to know is where
you’re weak i want to know how i can
serve you i want to know how i can make
you better the most profitable
businesses are not businesses that
steady keep on producing based off of
what is already working the businesses
that come in and take over overnight are
the ones who started looking at an area
where there was a need i dare you to
start asking yourself if you want to be
a better friend if you want to be a
better employee if you want to be a
better sister if you want to be a better
lover to start asking yourself where do
i need someone to connect with me i hate
i’m sorry hate is such a strong word but
sometimes i get so frustrated because
people say i want to be in a
relationship i want to be in a
relationship and the question i always
have is why and it’s like well i want to
have company what you need to understand
is when you want to be in a relationship
you need to know the areas where you are
weak so you can know what you’re looking
for in a partner i need someone to help
me balance out how critical i am i need
someone to help me balance out the way
that i spend money i’m looking for a
partner i can go to the movies with
anybody i can netflix and chill with
anybody i don’t need any more company i
need a partner i need a strategy and you
cannot have a proper strategy until you
dissect where you are weak and that’s
why we are constantly telling people
until you learn to know yourself and
learn to know who you are on the inside
and love yourself you will never pick
someone who was worthy of who you are
because you will pick someone who makes
you feel good in the places you know you
are already good instead of the person
who challenges you to grow and
challenges you to think better and
challenge you to show up in the world
differently
i don’t need anyone
to stroke my ego
i need someone who can recognize
that as strong as i am on this side
i still have some areas of growth and
development on this side
and someone who is wise enough
to recogni recognize that neither of
those sides define who i am but it is
rather the combination of them both
who make me who i am
you see
you do no one
any
any promises you do no one any good
when you allow them to just see
your highlight reel
and i want to break this notion
that the only way that you can look at
the areas in your life where you need
growth is to see them through shame
and rather to see them through the
opportunity to transform
our director of operations at woman
evolved whenever we have something that
we need to work on she doesn’t call it
an area of weakness she calls it an
opportunity for growth we have an area
where we have an opportunity for growth
i wonder when is the last time you
really asked yourself where is an area
that i have an opportunity for growth
there’s nothing like listening to
yourself preach and i’ve been listening
to myself preach lately and part of the
reasons why it takes me a really long
time to pick out clips is because i’m
just not looking to see the parts where
it sounds good i’m not just looking for
the parts where people i feel are going
to resonate with it i look for the
places where i will have an opportunity
for growth people who are constantly
looking for opportunities for growth
will always experience growth because
they’re looking for ways to become
better
i think
what happened to david
is that he stopped looking for
opportunities for
growth in psalm 51
this is a prayer of repentance
but it’s connected to second samuel 12
and i if i gave you any homework it
would be to read all of second samuel
12.
i’m going to give you the abbreviated
cliff note jerry springer version
this is what happened all right so david
david is supposed to be a battle david
ain’t that battle david is at the house
kicking it david is at the house kicking
it he looks out the window he sees bad
sheep but bathsheba is naked for the
lord okay she has given him a praise i
don’t know if it was appraised okay too
much she is out there she is naked she
is bathing david sees her david desires
her david ends up sleeping with
bathsheba the problem is that bathsheba
is somebody else’s wife
not just somebody else’s wife he’s she’s
like his right hand person’s wife
and he sleeps with her
and then she gets pregnant
and his remedy for fixing this is not
owning up to what he did it’s ultimately
having uriah killed
and when he has him killed he feels like
he has solved the problem that he tucked
it away in the corner and no one is
going to know what he did until 2 samuel
12.
and in 2nd samuel 12
god sends a prophet named nathan to
david
and this prophet tells david tells david
basically god saw what you did
he uses this analogy he’s so cold with
it he uses this analogy and when he uses
this analogy he makes david kind of
wonder what he’s talking about but he
doesn’t know that in the analogy that
one of those characters is representing
david you got to read second samuel 12.
and when he recognizes that he’s
actually talking about a character trait
that exists within him he realizes that
he has sinned against god
isn’t it funny
that we are sometimes able to pick out
what’s wrong with other people better
than we are able to identify what’s
happening with us
i always challenge people who come to me
and they’re talking about what someone
else did i’m like but what role did you
play into it because the reason why we
are most of the time able to highlight
what’s wrong with someone else it is
because it is the same area where we
have a deficiency within ourselves when
i’m looking at people’s pictures and i’m
looking at maybe their bodies and i’m
looking at their hair what i’m really
looking at are the areas that i see as
trouble within myself to compare myself
to what they look like when you start
looking at someone’s character traits
when you start looking at the way that
someone talks to somebody and it just
gets underneath your skin and you just
don’t like it what you should really ask
yourself is does that exist within me
god why am i so able to see that in
someone else is there something in me
that looks like what i’m pointing out in
someone else because when you start
pointing the finger it’s the old school
saying when you point one finger there’s
three of them pointing back at you david
starts pointing this finger
not realizing that there are still three
fingers pointing back at him
first of all one of the things that i
loved about this moment that nathan and
david has is that it proves to me why it
should say why the bible says that
vengeance is the lord’s
you see
uriah wasn’t there
when god ends up calling david on the
carpet for what he did
but that’s a word for somebody who has
been wondering is someone who wronged me
ever going to receive the the karma are
they going to receive the revenge that
they should get based off of how they
treat me and this is when the the bible
saying vengeance is mine say if the lord
is so important because god sees i want
you to know this that god sees
everything that has ever happened to you
and sometimes we are tormented by the
fact that we think that someone got away
with what they did to us and i hear god
saying that no one gets away with what
they’ve done on this earth but that they
are going to pay the price for it but
listen they’re not just going to pay the
price you see we want revenge god wants
transformation and that’s why vengeance
needs to be his and not ours because
what we want is for someone to hurt the
same way that they hurt us and what god
wants is for the person to understand
why they did it so that they will never
do it again and he’s about to have a
radical moment with david where david is
going to recognize not just what he did
but why he did it and it’s going to
bring him to his knees i want you to be
crazy enough to stop asking god to make
someone hurt the way that they hurt you
and to start asking god to make them
change god so that they never have to
hurt someone the way that they hurt you
before it’s too cheap to ask for god to
give you revenge when he wants
transformation so god i’m gonna come
into alignment oh and sometimes it hurts
and sometimes i have to become a bigger
person to do it but god i’m gonna ask
that you would bring me into alignment
with how you see that person god you see
them whole god you see them healed but i
experienced them broken and i
experienced them shattered and so father
i’m asking you that you would begin to
touch them so that they change so that
they can be transformed we’re talking
about big girl panties we talk about
putting on your big girl draws and start
acting like someone who recognizes that
it is too cheap for me to ask god to
lower someone down to what i want them
to experience instead god elevate them
grow them up help them to recognize the
implications of their actions help them
to understand that you can’t just treat
people any kind of way father i don’t
want you to have them out here more
broken than they already are father i’m
asking you to heal the person that hurt
me i’m asking you to change the person
who set me back i’m asking you to help
me to no longer make them a weapon but
instead to use them as a tool father
that you would place a testimony down on
the inside of them so that they can not
only be changed but they can change
everyone connected to them as well and
that is the type of radical prayer that
we must pray when we say father i’m
going to leave it up to you if you left
it up to me i may wish harm on them if
you left it up to me i may wish evil on
them but if i leave it up to you they
may actually change they may actually be
transformed and i don’t want to see any
more darkness in this world and i don’t
want to see any more evil in this world
so let me not add my bitterness into the
mix let me not add my anger into the mix
father instead i’m asking that you would
help my father break that addiction i’m
asking that you would help my mother
recognize that she can’t talk to anyone
any kind of way father i tried to fix it
on my own now i’m turning it over to you
and i’m saying father let the vengeance
be in your hands let the transformation
be in your hands father it hurt me long
enough now i relieve myself from the
expectation of needing the same person
who broke me to heal me now i’m just
asking father that you would heal me and
them imagine what kind of christian you
would be if you stopped asking god to
heal me and punish them and instead
father heal both of us father make us
both brand new help us both to
understand who we are and how we should
operate and function in the world father
i don’t need our destinies to be tied
together for me to wish somebody well i
can wish you well while i go this way
and you go that way but i am not
satisfied
i’m not satisfied
allowing my anger and my bitterness
to control how i want another person’s
outcome to be
and that’s the kind of maturity
that’s the kind of spiritual maturity
that we have to have when we recognize
that i trust god is capable
and i trust that he’s able to bring
awareness to every area that needs to
touch from him so what nathan does
when he has this moment with david
as he lets david know god saw that
that’s a word from somebody right there
god saw that god saw that i know it
looks like they got away with it but god
saw that i know it looks like they moved
on and that they won and they were happy
but i’m telling you god saw that you may
not see how god deals with them but you
have to know that god sees everything
and you have to be confident enough with
what god sees that you come to a place
where you say i don’t have to see how
you fix it i don’t have to see how you
work it all out i just need to know that
you saw that that’s a word for somebody
who’s been wondering god did you see how
they treated me god did you see how they
broke me god did you see how they
damaged me and god says i saw that i saw
that and i’m going to make sure that it
never happens again in my own
timing
and nathan
has this conversation with david
and he explains to david exactly what he
did and the implications of what he did
and i started studying and praying i
wanted to understand how is it
that david ended up in this situation in
the first place david this valiant
warrior
how did he end up in a situation
where he was willing to commit adultery
and even murder
and i realized that what happened to
david
is that david
lost the posture of honor
and instead
he started feeling entitled
you got to start looking
at the areas where you once felt honored
and start asking yourself do i now feel
entitled
in the place where i once felt honored
when god first gave you that spouse when
god first gave you that job opportunity
remember when you felt
honored i feel the presence of god on
this
when we recognize the honor connected to
what god gives us we treat it
differently
god i honor you for what you gave me god
i honor you that you chose me god i
honor you that you using me you could be
using anyone else but father you dare to
use me god the honor what if we lost the
posture of honor what if we gain the
world and gain the kingdoms and gain
riches and jewels and fame but we lost
the honor connected to it god help us to
never lose the honor connected to being
a part of what you’re doing in this
earth david was the one who had a who
was a man after god’s own heart he was
acknowledged and celebrated for the
honor that he had connected to what god
did in his life and in this moment he
went from being honored
to being entitled
i want to challenge you
especially in this season where we can
be so stressed
and so at our wits end and so
unsure of what tomorrow holds
to start looking for honor again
father i’m looking for
the honor that i have a job it may not
be the best job i may not have the best
boss in the world but father i have a
job and a season where 20 plus million
people are filing for unemployment
father i honor that that is you honor
says that i recognize that this came
from you that’s why giving and tithes
and offerings are so important for me
it’s important for me because it’s my
way of saying father i honor you i honor
that you spoke to me i honor that you
gave this word to me and honor releases
god’s presence over your life there’s
somebody who’s been wondering when god’s
presence is going to show up and i hear
god saying that my presence needs a
place that is befitting of the honor
connected to it if you start honoring
what i gave you then you will start
seeing my presence showing up in your
household it’s going to sound crazy but
when you open your eyes in the morning
instead of just wondering what’s on your
to-do list and wondering what all you
have to accomplish to take a minute and
say father i honor you for waking me up
this morning father i honor you that i
woke up with a roof over my head that i
don’t even know what the weather is like
outside because you provided somewhere
for me to stay father i recognize that
that is not happenstance and i don’t
ever want to start taking for granted
what you gave me i remember when i used
to feel honored to take this stage i
remember when i used to feel honored to
show up in my marriage god that is the
same kind of honor that is going to
sustain you for the next few years the
next few decades your next is connected
to how you honor your now and if you
don’t see any honor and now you can stop
praying that god would give you next
until you see the honor and what you do
now until you get a heart posture that
says father if you don’t do anything
else for me i honor the fact that you
brought me this far father if i never
get to do it the way that i feel like i
could do it i honor the fact that you
exposed me father i honor the fact that
my family’s still together we may be
calling each other from all across the
world but somebody doesn’t have it and
father i honor you that i got this
chance to show up this morning honor
releases the presence of god i hear god
saying that you don’t know how to pray
but start honoring me you don’t know how
to worship but start honoring what i did
in your life start honoring that i gave
you that idea this isn’t just an idea
father it is an honor to wake up in the
morning and to possess something that i
know only came from you father it is an
honor that i get to hear a word from you
father i honor the fact that you brought
people into my life in a time when i
felt like i was all by myself god you
brought someone into my life i want to
rebuke the spirit of fear and i’m going
to tell you how we rebuke it we rebuke
it by honoring what god is doing now i
don’t care what fear is doing i care
what god has been consistently doing
he’s been consistent throughout the
years father i honor you father i honor
who you are in my marriage i honor who
you are in my family i feel like heaven
wants to break out over your house i
feel like heaven wants to break out over
your depression father i forgot to honor
you i forgot to place you on the throne
i forgot to make room for you in the
midst of all of this so father
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father
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restore me
to the posture of honor
where all i wanted to do was serve
where all i wanted to do was love
where it wasn’t about whether or not
someone was going to sign a check or
someone was going to acknowledge me i
used to show up just excited because you
had been ordering my steps and taking me
places that i never should have been
father i honor you you went ahead of me
you made my crooked path straight father
i honor you
i honor
that there’s still air in my lungs
father i honor you
that somebody buried their child and i
hug my night father i honor you
that my ends are being met right now i
don’t have time to worry about next week
i honor you for what you did this week i
honor you for what you did last month
father take me back to the place of
honor not need not regret not worry not
fear not concern father help me to live
in the consciousness of honor david felt
entitled to someone else’s wife
and it made him lose access to god
because he was no longer the person
who said father
i’m honored to use this slingshot
to slay any giant coming against your
people
and so
david has to do something crazy
that we don’t always like to do because
it sounds so churchy and religious
but david has to repent
he has to repent because somewhere along
the way
he changed his mind on his position
and when he changed his mind it changed
his actions
and the only way to get back to who he
was
is to repent that is
to change his mind again
so that it would change his actions
and as i was studying this prayer
and as i was studying for tonight
i felt like god was saying to me
specifically
that someone is not
in the place of honor anymore
that someone is
so inundated with thoughts about where
they should be and who they should
become that they feel entitled to a
destiny when they haven’t even honored
the present that they’re in right now
i feel entitled to more i feel like i
should have more i feel like i should
have i should have i should be i should
be that is the spirit of entitlement it
is not just ambition it is entitlement i
feel entitled to something i should have
it i should have it and you are so
consumed with what you should have that
you don’t see god has blessed where you
are right now
this is not one of those feel good
jump up and down messages
this message is meant to break open your
heart
and to ask god am i complaining about
something i once prayed about
am i stressing and
anxious and worried
about something that used to be an honor
because when you really honor something
and hear me clearly honoring doesn’t
mean you stay trapped honor means that
even when you leave you leave with honor
you leave with respect because you
recognize that god is watching it’s
almost as if david forgot that god was
watching god was watching the entire
time he thought that he was getting away
with it but god is watching god is
watching how you talk about that thing
he gave you he knows that it’s time for
you to move on to next he knows that
you’re ready for more growth but he says
it doesn’t matter how you leave you will
know that you know how to adult and you
will know that you are mature when you
recognize that even when i leave i leave
with honor that even when i leave you
don’t have to worry about me betraying
your secrets you don’t have to worry
about me talking badly about you because
i know without a shadow of a doubt that
god brought me into it and because god
brought me into it i’m not going to
dishonor it even when i’m out of it
because i am protecting the honor that
was connected to it in the very first
place i honor
what god does in my life
and so david
david has to get back to the place of
honor
where he recognizes that
his actions led him away
david’s actions led him to be king
and it was his same actions that led him
to be separated to have this separation
from god
your actions are leading you somewhere
i know it’s so cute for everyone to say
live in the moment you better not live
in the moment hear me clearly now don’t
you live in the moment you mess around
and live in the moment and end up five
ten years down the road and don’t know
how you got there your actions are
leading you somewhere you are not just
out here doing whatever you want to do
your actions have consequences and you
have to ask yourself can i deal with the
consequences connected to my actions
you’re married talking about you a flirt
child you’re gonna flirt your way all
the way to divorce court your actions
are leading you somewhere you talk about
i just like to spend money and then you
somewhere evicted because your actions
are leading you somewhere do not live in
the moment start asking god what is the
consequence connected to this action
because your actions are leading
somewhere and on the contrary when you
start building a life that you want god
to bless you have to know that he is
looking at your actions he’s looking at
how you handle what he has given you in
this moment i can know whether or not i
trust you by your actions your actions
speak louder than your words ever will
you keep telling me you want to get
closer to god you keep telling me that
you want to have this time so that you
can build your relationship with god but
your actions are telling me that you
would rather be on tick tock doing
challenges child your actions are
leading you somewhere and if they’re
leading you further away from god god
will always send you a prophet that says
wait a minute
you’ve gone too far
wait a minute god wants to bring you
back
and when god sends this prophet nathan
to david
it’s because his actions have led him
astray
and i just for a minute want to dissect
this prayer of repentance
i want you to read all of psalm 51 i got
all kinds of homework for you i want you
to read second samuel 12 and then i want
you to read all of psalm 51
and i want you to study this prayer of
repentance
the first thing that david does in this
prayer of repentance is that he
acknowledges who god is he honors god
and then he acknowledges his sin he
acknowledges that he is now seeing what
he did the same way that god sees it
you will never have breakthrough over
that lust over that addiction over your
bitterness over your brokenness until
you begin to see it the same way that
god sees it when you see it the same way
that god sees it you will see that it is
keeping you from being who god has
called you to be to sin means to
literally miss the mark the reason why
god hates sin is because it means that
you miss the mark for who he has called
you to be and when you start to see what
is standing in your way the same way
that god sees it you will not see it as
a cute little issue anymore you will not
see it as a little dilemma that you can
tuck away in the closet and keep there
and it won’t affect your life anymore
when you start seeing it the way that
god sees it you will start recognizing
that if i don’t get a handle of this
this thing is going to sabotage my
destiny i came here to tell you
something yes you are ambitious yes you
have ideas yes you have creativity but
you are human and that means that there
is something in you that has the ability
to sabotage what god has placed down on
the inside of you and the greatest thing
you can do yourself is to ask god to
show you who you are so that i can
recognize what is in me that will
sabotage the very thing that i’m praying
for there are some issues that i have
seen pop up in my own life that i
realize are trying to sabotage what god
has placed down on the inside of me
feelings of inadequacy feelings of
insecurity and i believed those thoughts
for as long as i could and then one day
i got a revelation that those feelings
and those the emotions were leading me
astray and i started getting curious
about if they were leading me astray
then what were they taking me away from
i came here to let you know that you got
to take depression seriously you got to
take those suicidal thoughts seriously
i’m tired of people just living with
these emotions that lead them astray and
you got to start asking god god if these
are leading me somewhere what is it
taking me away from and i hear god
saying that there is a version of you
that you haven’t even met yet that there
is an identity that you haven’t even
tapped in yet and when you start to see
those limitations the same way same way
that i see them then you will get
aggressive and you will start going to
therapy and you will start going to
rehab because you will become so
intrigued with what it’s taking you away
from that you will start getting
aggressive about recognizing that i
won’t let anything not even what’s in me
keep me from laying hold of what god has
placed down on the inside of me i got
tired of talking bad about myself i got
tired of having low self-esteem and i
started getting curious i want to
prophesy over you right now that you
would stop that you would start getting
tired of you talking to yourself any
kind of way and every place where you
were talking negatively about yourself
in every place where you were doubting
what god is doing down on the inside of
you that he would replace it with
curiosity
i hear god saying i want you to be
curious again
that i want you to be curious about who
you are
and i know failure failure comes and it
makes us believe that we can’t be
curious anymore
but i hear god saying that it will be
your curiosity about what i can do
through you
that will unlock the healing that you
need for the insecurities that plague
you
god i’m curious
that out of all the people who could
have been alive in this season you chose
me father why is that
of all the people who could have been in
this room why did you choose me father
i’m curious about why you placed me in
this marriage i’m curious about why you
chose me to raise this child while you
chose me to build this business god i’m
curious it’s not a burden anymore i
don’t feel like it’s just something that
i have to do anymore now i’m curious
that every time i tried to run away you
kept pulling me back and every time i
tried to push you away you kept pulling
me in father i’m tired in front and i’m
finally curious i dare you to start
asking god what is it that you see what
is it that you know god i’m gonna keep
serving and i’m gonna keep showing up
and i’m gonna keep humbling myself until
i figure out what it is that you place
down on the inside of me and then when
you figure it out make sure you go the
extra step to worship and honor god
because he showed you something about
you that you never knew was down on the
inside of you don’t be one of those
leopards who get healed and forget to
turn around i dare you to be that one
crazy leopard that says before i can
live in this celebration of what god
said i gotta be a church man for a
minute i gotta be a church girl for a
minute and i gotta say first give an
honor to god who is the head of my life
who saw me when i didn’t see myself who
placed me in rooms i had no business
being in father i honor you
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david
david he
he honors god
and what
god did for him
and then he acknowledges he comes into
agreement with god god i’m in agreement
with you that this relationship is less
than me father i’m in agreement with you
that this mindset is paralyzing me i’m
in agreement with you i hate it i don’t
want to live with it any longer i don’t
want to accept it any longer i come into
agreement with god i come into agreement
with god about the way that you have
been living your life i come into
agreement with god about the way that
i’ve been thinking about this listen i
had to start preaching and i kept saying
god i don’t feel qualified god i don’t
know if i can do it and god says you
will never have power until you come
into agreement with what i see and i
messed around and came into agreement
with god and i said god has an anointing
over my life i didn’t understand it at
first but when i couldn’t trust my own
thoughts i decided to trust his thoughts
i started to say his ways are not my
ways his thoughts are not my thoughts
and so if i got to choose between my
thoughts and his thoughts between my
ways and his ways i’m going to choose
his ways father i come into agreement
with what you say about me
i am fearfully and wonderfully made
father i do have the power to walk away
from this
father you’re making all things work
together for my good i’m not talking
about just quoting scriptures i’m
talking about literally coming into
agreement father
i want to prophesy somebody’s watching
this video right now and they have so
many doubts and so many fears that they
cannot come into agreement with what you
have said about them father i’m asking
right now in the name of jesus that you
would remove it right now that you would
remove every limitation that you would
remove every paradigm that’s keeping
them from coming into agreement i rebuke
it in the name of jesus i rebuke it in
the name that is above every other name
i rebuke it and i send it back to hell
where it came from it’s only standing in
their way because if it ever got out of
their way they would get a revelation
about who they are they would get a
revelation about who you have called
them to be and they would wage war on
hell you think it’s about you i hear the
enemy saying that you are the greatest
threat to his kingdom and if you ever
get a revelation about what god placed
down on the inside of you then rivers of
living water would start flowing out of
you i came here to let somebody know
that the rivers are flowing i came here
to let somebody know that the drought is
over i feel the river coming i feel the
river coming somebody better get into
the flow the flow is what god is doing
the flow is what god is saying
and david recognizes
he says i gotta get back in the flow
i gotta get back in the flow of what god
is doing
i saw myself slipping away and i don’t
wanna be anywhere but in the presence of
the lord so i gotta change my mind so i
can change my actions i feel that for
somebody i don’t know who you are but i
hear god saying you gotta get back in
the flow you’ve been in the flow of fear
you’ve been in the flow of anxiety
you’ve been in the flow of being
paralyzed and not moving and i hear god
saying that you were never supposed to
be in those flows that it’s time for you
to get back in the flow of who i called
you to be pride’s gotta let you go
eagles gotta get up off of you i’m
getting back in the flow if that’s you i
want you to drop me a comment i want to
know who’s getting back on the flow on
the live stream i want to know who’s
getting back on the flow on facebook you
better watch out devil i’m getting back
in the flow you better watch that
depression i’m getting back in the flow
you better watch out i’m calling my
therapist i’m getting my health together
i’m getting back in the flow the flow
the flow the flow the flow i got
somewhere to go so i gotta get in the
flow i have someone to become i gotta
get back in the flow i gotta grow i
can’t grow unless i’m in the flow
this is why
this is why they say david is a man
after god’s heart
he didn’t always have a hold of god’s
heart
but when he realized that he was out of
the flow of god’s heart
he did whatever was necessary to get
back in the flow
fear is not in the flow
pride is not in the flow ego was not in
the flow
and so he says to himself
in verse six very quickly i’m gonna say
this i’m gonna close verse six says
behold you desire truth in the inward
parts truth
that word truth in the hebrew it means
stability
says god
part of why i need to
get back in the flow
is because my inward parts
they’re not stable
my inward parts are only stable
when i’m aligned with who you are
he acknowledges in verse six
that what god wants for you god wants
you to have stability
in your inward parts he wants you to be
confident he doesn’t want you to be
shakeable he doesn’t want you to hear
one thing and lose it all he wants you
to trust him he wants you to know that
he’s not a man that he shall lie he
wants to give you those things he wants
you to have stability i know your mother
couldn’t give it to you i know your
father couldn’t give it to you i know
the relationship didn’t give it to you
but god is the one who wants to give you
stability and you will thank god that no
person could give it to you because when
god gives you stability no man can take
it away from you if a relationship gives
you stability and it leaves then you
will be undone but when god gives you
stability
it can never be taken away from you
psalms 51 and 6 says behold you desire
your truth in the inward parts and in
the hidden part you will make me to know
wisdom
you’re going to give me stability
because in the places that i’ve been
keeping hidden
you’re going to give me wisdom
god’s not going to make you figure this
out on your own
god says if you let me in i’m going to
give you wisdom
i’ll show you how to walk away
i’ll show you how to build the business
i’ll show it to you i’ll give you wisdom
that 51-6 that part of his repentance is
letting god into those inward parts
because he recognizes i need wisdom on
how to handle this i need wisdom on how
to recover from what i did i need wisdom
on how to walk with my head held high
after all that i’ve gone through i need
wisdom god i need you to speak to me
and then verse 10
what i love so much about verse 10 and
we quote this scripture all the time
creating me a clean heart oh god and
renew as steadfast
spirit within me that word create is not
like create that we see in genesis
this word create means to cut back
that means that he gave god permission
to cut him back
into a clean heart
what if
the only way you can get back
to having a clean heart
is if some things are cut away
are you bold enough
to give god permission to cut you to
heal you
are you hungry enough
to say god i don’t care if it hurts if
it means that it’s going to heal me
i don’t need you to be my feel-good
genie i don’t need you to be my
feel-good doctor
what i want more than anything
is for you to show me
what you’ve seen in me
then he says renew a steadfast spirit in
me your spirit is supposed to be
steadfast and he says to take me back
i’m reminded reminded of jeremiah when
it says before i formed you in your
mother’s womb i knew you god breathed a
steadfast spirit in you it wasn’t
shakeable
he says take me back to that
and then lastly verse 13.
he says then i will teach
after i’ve gone through this process
sometimes we want to teach before we’ve
gone through the process but i hear god
saying that your testimony is most
powerful when you can give someone else
tools he says then i will teach
transgressors your ways
and sinners shall be converted to you
i’m reminded of revelation
12 and they overcame by the word of
their test by the blood of the lamb and
the word
of their testimony
what is this all about
sometimes
we feel like when we are in control
of our different idiosyncrasies
when we feel like we have them figured
out and tucked away neatly where they
don’t show up in our life we think that
we have our lives under control
that’s just like david in this text
he kind of thought that he’d gotten away
with what happened and then this prophet
comes and he lets him know i know you
think you’re in control but you’re
really out of
control and if you really want to be in
control then you got to be out of
control and let god
take control
and so he has to repent for trying to
manage things himself
and instead create a space
where he can be out of control
so god can be in control
when i came to this place and my walk
with god
i realized that i had spent so long
trying to be in control
of how people saw me of how people
experienced me
but it wasn’t until i decided you know
what
who i am is who i am
and how i speak is how i speak
and my truth is my truth when i decided
that i didn’t want to be in control
anymore that’s when god took over i
changed my mind and then it changed my
actions
my prayer for you
in this season
is that you would be hungry
for a change of mind
so that god can change your actions
that you would be bold enough to open up
the closet of your soul
and see what patterns have accumulated
what
character traits have accumulated that
have not come from god
and that you would ask god not so that
you can feel ashamed but so that you can
be transformed to see them
and to show you what he can do with them
in his hands
my goal and my agenda for this moment
simply and purely
is to bring you to a place of
surrender
and i believe that as you
open up your heart
to getting back in that place of
surrender
that god is going to give you so much
truth
so much wisdom so much revelation
that you won’t be afraid any longer
someone’s been battling the spirit of
fear
and i hear god saying that he’s got
wisdom for your fear he has strategy for
your fear
but we got to be willing to first honor
who he is
then come into agreement about how he
sees fear god has not given me the
spirit of fear i come into agreement
that anything that hasn’t come from god
can’t stay into my life god didn’t give
me this spirit of anxiety i come into
agreement with what god wants for my
life and then my actions have to look
like what i come into agreement with
and when your actions come into
agreement
then you’re going to be restored
you’re going to be renewed and you are
going to be
unshakable
but it starts with you first being out
of control
i want to
pray for you tonight
you’re watching this message
and you pride yourself on your ability
to be in control
i don’t let anything get to me i don’t
let anything shake me i’m in control i’m
in control
are you in control or is god in control
you see the thing about god is he’s not
going to fight you for control
he gave us free will you can do it
however you like
but i’m telling you that your life will
be so much more hard and challenging
than it has to be when you insist on
being in control
there’s something we say at my house
whenever things are like out of control
we’re like there’s nothing we can do
about it
and that’s the truth and there’s nothing
i want to do about it
because if i do something about it i may
mess it up
but if god gives me insight on what i am
to do about it then i never have to
question what i have to do next or what
the outcome will be
because i allowed him to give me wisdom
instead of me forcing my life to fit
into this pretty little box that makes
me comfortable
so i want to pray for you
you need a mind change
you need
a spiritual shift
and i believe that it starts with you
first honoring god
i feel that
that as you shift him where he belongs
that he’s going to shift you as well
when we honor and we worship we grab
ahold of god
but it’s not because we bring god down
to us it’s because he pulls us up to him
and right now no matter where you are in
your house in your car at the job within
yourself i want to challenge you to
create an altar
an altar of honor
i’m going to pray with you
but i want you to pray from that altar
i want you to bring an offering to that
altar god i want to bring my fear to
this altar i want to bring my shame to
this altar father i’ve been functioning
in my pride and my ego and now all of
these things are coming in my direction
and i can’t keep my walls up any longer
people are going to see that i’m
actually human that i’m actually
vulnerable i want you to take that pride
to the altar i want you to take it to
the altar and we’re going to honor god
from the place where you feel
like you
are in control
and we’re going to honor god from that
place because when we honor him we give
him permission to be in control
and then what i’m going to pray
is that you would come into agreement
with what god sees
when he sees those areas of your life
and that as you come into agreement with
what god sees that you’re also going to
come into agreement with god’s power to
break it i feel the spirit of god on
that when we come into agreement with
god when we come into relationship with
god i see it the same way you see it you
don’t think that you can break that
thing off of your life because you’re
looking at it from your perspective but
when you come into it with god’s
perspective you also get god’s power and
god’s going to give you the power to
break mindsets and addictions and
relationships and ways of being that you
were never supposed to be in and i hear
god saying that it is going to be easier
than you think it is that you think it’s
going to be hard and you think it’s
going to be challenging and that’s why
you haven’t done it but i hear god
saying when you come into agreement with
how i see it you won’t have any choice
but to change it because you will
recognize that that is an area that is
keeping you from seeing the glory of god
i want to prophesy glory over every area
right now where you feel like there’s a
stepping stone that you have to overcome
there’s glory waiting on you on that
next level
then god’s going to give us a clean
heart
we’re going to give him permission to
cut it away
and then we’re going to be monuments of
his glory and we’re going to reach back
and pull someone else up
in the area where we were once
struggling
so get those things if you got them and
you feel comfortable type them in the
chat room god i’m bringing my fear to
the altar
god i’m bringing my pain to the altar
god i’m bringing my anxiety to the altar
father i’m bringing it to the altar and
i’m not just pleading with you i’m going
to honor you over those things the
spirit of the living god
father we honor you
father you are a waymaker
father you are a healer there is no one
else like you father you are my provider
father you are my healer you are a
miracle worker father you are though you
are there for those who are
brokenhearted father i prophesy right
now that from the place where these
people are feeling lack from the place
where these people are feeling like they
are disconnected from you from the place
where they feel all of these emotions
that are keeping them from laying hold
of who you call them to be that if they
would allow you to rise to the top then
everything else would be drowned so
father i’m asking that your presence
would begin to invade their atmosphere
right now father let your glory fall
like never before spirit of the living
god and you are a living god you cannot
be bound you cannot be buried you cannot
be killed you are a living god who
breathes and has a being father let your
spirit fall let it fall in a fresh new
way i speak the spirit of the living god
over every sacrifice father let it die
so new life can come above father let it
die some new life can be resurrected
father i speak to every principality i
speak to every chain i speak to every
demonic influence that has been waging
war over these your sons and daughters
and i prophesy in the name of jesus that
you have no more power that you have no
more ability to control them i speak to
shame you’ve got to go i speak to pain
you’ve got to go bitterness you cannot
stay the spirit of the living god is
moving like never before and it is
stirring up the gift of god that is down
on the inside of them father we come
into agreement that this is not just you
this is standing in the way of who you
have called me to be this is standing in
the way of the kingdom you’ve called me
to establish and father i hate my sin i
hate this insecurity i hate this fear i
hate this addiction i hate what it’s
doing to my family i hate what it’s
doing to my mind i hate it father and
because you hate it too i asked that you
would strip it from its power that you
would strip it of its ability to control
me i don’t want to be addicted anymore i
don’t want to be lost and insecure
anymore i hate it
i hate it
i hate it i hate it i hate it and i come
into agreement with you father that this
was never supposed to be my portion that
this came from the father of all lies so
i send it back to hell where it came
from loose your hold off of them in the
name of jesus lose your hold off of
their mind loose your hold off of their
path lucid right now in the name of
jesus i bleed the blood of jesus over
them the blood of jesus that covers them
the blood of jesus that heals them i
bleed the blood of jesus
and i speak breakthrough
i speak breakthrough i speak
breakthrough i prophesy breakthrough i
hear god saying that somebody’s laid
hold of this message and you’re never
gonna have to fight that devil again
that god’s gonna give you strategy that
you used to be afraid of that devil and
i hear god saying you’re going to start
going to war with that devil you’re
going to start talking back to that
devil you’re going to start telling that
devil you can’t have my mind you’re
going to tell that devil you can’t have
my marriage you can’t have my child i
hear god saying your courage is coming
back i hear god saying your power is
coming back that you’ve been silent too
long
unleash your mouth
unleash your mouth
unleash your mouth
and speak god’s truth
god’s name it has power
god said release my power when you don’t
have power
release my glory when you don’t have
glory
release my truth when you have questions
don’t just sit back and take this
and live with it
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pull it out so he can see it
pull it out so he can change it pull it
out so he can transform it i hate this
thing that’s keeping me from you
when you start to hate it
then you can ask god
to give me a clean heart
cut it out of me
cut it back father
father we give you permission
to cut us into purity
to cut us oh father how can we be in
covenant with you unless we are willing
to be cut
father we bring ourselves into covenant
with you
cut out my pride cut out my ego father i
come into covenant with you and i don’t
want one of those covenants that don’t
cost me anything father i’m willing to
give you even the things that once made
me feel good father i’m saying you can
cut it away
if it means i can be in covenant with
you
and so father
the goal of this message
is to not leave
feeling like lions
but allowing ourselves to be lambs
father make us tender
make us vulnerable
father give us the power to say i need
you i don’t trust myself i don’t trust
the way i think i don’t trust the way i
believe father i need you give us a
heart like david’s in this moment
and father the only way i want to move
is if i move with you
and when you have transformed me father
then
then i’ll go back and i’ll tell everyone
else
that you saved a wretch like me
father we repent
father we change our mind
so that we can change our actions
we only want actions that lead us closer
to you
so father remove from us anything that
doesn’t look like you
we give you permission to have your way
in our lives
so that we can grow and become
everything
that you’ve called us to be
but most importantly
so that we can experience you
in every area of our life when we give
you full reign father we get to
experience you and what we want more
than anything is to experience your
glory i don’t want to experience fear i
want to experience your glory i spend
enough time with shame i want to
experience your glory i spend enough
time with god i want to experience your
glory father my pride is keeping me from
your glory my egos keeping me from your
glory father i just want to be in your
glory god i could spend a lifetime in
your glory that’s why i gave my life to
you father
i want to experience you afresh
and so father let this sermon end
but their transformation begin
may their altar not stop burning just
because the video has ended
but may it burn with even more fire
because they found something else to lay
down at your feet
father help us to never run out of
things to lay at your feet
that you would constantly search us
so that we may lay down what’s keeping
us from connecting to you
father it is my prayer that you would
allow this word to be one that sticks
for a long time
that it changes the way they see you and
see themselves
that they would never be distant from
you
when they could be intimate with the
knowledge
of who you are in every season
seal this word allow it to take root
and produce fruit
in jesus name
amen