Service Date: 06.07.17 8PM
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so we’ve been doing the book club for
first lady’s look it’s an amazing if
you’re not screaming suspicious you
haven’t been paying attention to it but
the book is truly amazing and I
definitely recommend for everyone to
read it there is there’s a chapter that
something she said that stood out to me
and coming to speak today that was
highlighted again and so it’s on Chapter
two the chapter is called learn your
pattern and so there’s something she
says and it’s our read so if you have
chosen to maintain an unhealthy mindset
out of fear of starting over you will
never be able to realize the full
potential of your life
so today’s message is called starting
over so so she talks about if you are
afraid of starting over you will never
go back you will never be able to
realize the full potential of your life
so there is a connection between
realizing the full potential and
starting over you see starting over is a
word we don’t like you know it has this
negative connotation of it doesn’t mean
that all the years have been wasted
resources wasted you know what does that
mean for everything I’ve invested myself
into right we hold on to you know for
some people you’re holding on to a place
some people hold on to positions some
professions some people right and we’re
holding on to this because of what we
have invested in it and so the idea of
starting over it’s like okay lord have I
wasted my time
have I wasted my years you see there was
a time that the very thing you’re
holding on to now you
work for you the times that you know
everything seems right it seemed like it
was all great but in this moment if
you’re honest instinctively you’re
disconnected from that thing and God has
allowed you to encounter a door that is
supposed to be open to you if everything
was right but it was shut and so you see
found like this is a season of open
doors right if and that’s exciting but
it also means that if you’re in front of
a door that is closed
God is not requiring you to knock not
you know knock knock now that’s nothing
for those that song oh oh that is not
real even listen to that song it’s not
on his playlist right listen so that is
not he’s not requiring any knocking he’s
not requiring any effort there is open
doors in front of you there open doors
for your destiny so if there is a door
that is shut then perhaps you’re in the
wrong place you see starting over it’s
not even about wasted years it’s not
even about highlighting the wrong
decisions you make or the wrong choices
you make because ultimately you know a
wrong decision is a decision made in
darkness you cannot choose right if you
don’t see right and darkness is not
something to be afraid of darkness is
not an evil thing creation started in
darkness God has a way of abusing
darkness at the beginning because
without darkness without darkness you
will never value or understand the
essence of light
you know in Genesis 1 it talks about how
the earth was without form and it was
void and darkness covered the face of
the deep
but it’s so fascinating to me because in
that darkness God says let there be
light so in that very thing that seems
scary that seems like oh my gosh I just
made all the bad decisions light is
contained inside it because God wasn’t
creating like he just said light be and
you see we’re in the season where God is
speaking to you let there be light and
what that means is he’s calling forth
your true self and so starting over is
not about it’s not everything that
you’ve been through is what will cause
you to value where he’s taking you and
so it’s not that you wasted years you
see a lot of times we like to probably
stay in relationships with something
because you invested a lot in the
relationship
you’re like listening I don’t pay for
views on you I need a return but it’s
not even that because if that
relationship is not meant to be what if
you know everything that went wrong with
that will show that you would value what
is right when God brings your person
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y’all need some my husband’s alive oh
great I just a lot of learn y’all to
tell yourself
but but let’s reel back right and so
when God gave me this message about
starting over I understood that it
really deals with a renewal of the mind
it deals with you seeing the same thing
but differently so you want to send how
to make the right choice you see the
Bible talks about as a man thinketh so
is he so that means the renewal of the
mind ultimately is the reinvention of
yourself
and that self is that is the true
version of you that God is calling forth
you see in life we we make a lot of a
lot of decisions we make a lot for a lot
of choices we make you know the truth is
there’s a lot of things even when you’re
in Christ and you’re you know Jesus yes
there’s something that you make out of
your own wisdom there are some things
you make out of the counsel of people
that might not be led by God
there are some decisions you make based
on what it looks like and what society
says if it looks like this it must be
this and so we make these decisions and
you know I love it Hebrews 12 talks
about how when God will shake things up
so that which cannot be shaken will
stand and so God is aware that we create
things in our lives and it comes to a
place it comes to an appointed time in
the season where he starts causing
things to be shaken up so for some of
you this is a season where your
frustration for some reason has
increased you’re very like you’re just
it’s kind of like this disturbing thing
like what is going on with me what’s you
know I’m not really sure I just get
irritated easily it’s you’re not weird
it’s not a it’s not like you know
there’s no spirit against you right it’s
just the atmosphere of what’s happening
spiritually there is a shaking taking
place and so define that properly God is
calling you to yourself but you see in
order for this to happen
we have to come to a place of surrender
we have to come to a place to say god I
am going to lay down everything I know
of myself even what I believe is my
purpose even what I believe is my
calling
even who I believe is for me I I am
willing to lay it all down to you so
that you would show me what is your
willingness not being afraid to say you
know what maybe I had it wrong not being
afraid to say maybe I followed something
that wasn’t led by you but it seems to
be you see the passage in Proverbs this
proverbs 3 and we can pull that up it’s
proverbs 3 4 to 5 right and this is a
very familiar passage of script
because it tells us to not lean on our
own understanding right but in all our
ways we should trust in the Lord
right I’m paraphrasing but yeah depends
no lolly you know trust the Lord with
all your heart right really and that’s
especially versions trusting the Lord
with all your heart and do not depend on
your own understanding and then verse 6
says seek his will in all you do and he
will show you which path to take we see
some versions talked about and he will
make the crooked path straight so that
means that sometimes in life we are on a
crooked journey which leads to closed
doors and we’re trying to figure out why
is the door in front of me but it’s
supposed to be open closed and then God
reminds us do not lean on your own
understanding seek me let me find out
what is what is my will in everything
you’re doing that you also say it’s for
me you see sometimes the very things
that we that becomes a stronghold
it’s a stronghold sometimes because we
believe like this is what God wants me
to do but you see if that is what God
wants you to do there’s no issue
surrendering it to him because if it is
he will give that thing back to you
Abraham and Isaac God is the one who
told him I would give you a son the same
God tells him sacrifice the son is not
making sense but are we willing to
surrender everything we think we know
about ourselves so that that which he
has purposed will stand you see the path
we’re going to look into and the passage
of familiar but the person is not really
someone we talk about and it’s someone
by the name of Ely AB Elias was David’s
oldest brother you see we can actually
even go to First Samuel 16 if you know
the time we’re obviously you know Israel
one in a king God picked the king he
takes the King Saul
and then solve it some things that were
just a little you know out of hand
God said look Brock we’re going to
choose somebody else all right here so
that says God tells his prophet he’s
prophets I’m oh he says you know what go
to the house of Jesse he has eight sons
I have chosen a king amongst his son and
I will show you who to choose who to
anoint right and so the prophet Sam wall
he goes to Jesse’s house and this is
what happened so Wednesday so he you
know he comes in he tells you know the
father Jesse like you know bring all
your sons and all that stuff so that we
would see who the Lord has chosen so
when they answered Elia is the first
time he looked at Elia and thought
surely the Lord’s anointed is before him
verse 7 but the Lord said to Samuel do
not look at his appearance or at the
height of his stature these two things
are very important because I have
rejected him for God sees not as man
sees for man looks at the outward
appearance but the Lord looks at the
heart
now that’s a powerful Scripture God
looks at the heart beautiful but that’s
not a message but if he wanted
fascinating that word we you know I have
rejected him I was looking into that
word and it also carries the the meaning
of to disappear and what I to not look
at it even in a negative way what what I
understood about it it’s almost as
though you see what God was appointing
right a king for Israel you know what
something disappears it’s not it’s not
even existing he could not see Ilia
because it was never for him so it’s not
just rejection in the terms of I have
rejected you it cannot see you it can
only see who it has been appointed to
but now
Helia my heart went towards Iliad
because you see why I said it’s very
important to notice appearance and
height when Israel needed a king so God
had been ruling over Israel Israel gets
up and says we want a king like every
other nation and God is like you know
first the Prophet summer was like you
know what are they doing God says it’s
okay it’s not you the Prophet they’re
rejecting it is media rejecting all
Israel knew was that they want a king
now when God gave them King Saul you see
who they saw was God has BC got actually
chose King so it wasn’t a random thing
he appointed handy he said okay you know
what this is the person anoints him and
all that stuff right but when God chose
King Saul he wasn’t choosing the king in
the manner of who he would have chosen
for Israel his chosen nation he chose
King Saul in a manner of what every
other person does because the motivating
factor behind Israel one in a king was
we want to be like every other nation so
let’s go to 1st Samuel I believe is um
verse 9 you see when God chose King Saul
there were things that were very
distinct about him so now he had so he
had a son is referring to Saul father so
he said he had a soul whose name he had
a son whose name was Saul a choice and
handsome man and there was not a more
handsome person than he among the sons
of Israel from his shoulders and up he
was taller than all of the people Saul
first of all this is God God chose him
the people don’t know the motivating
factor be Wow God chosen nothing like
that oh they know is that God has chosen
a king now this King is someone that
when you see him there were things that
were very distinct about him his
appearance and his height so he was
chosen among the house of Israel among
all the men of is
girl God shows the man who was the
tallest and preferably the most handsome
so the standard of what it appears is
that when God is looking for a king it
deals with beauty and height now comes
Aliyah he’s aware of that now jesse is
in the house yeah I mean um prophet
Samuel is in the house the Prophet is
saying God has you know God God brought
him here to anoint a king le AB when he
sees himself amongst his brothers he
sees a man who is the tallest and the
most handsome now but first of all we
know that the firstborn does not always
me or the tallest right or the most
handsome right I’ve seen a lot of
firstborns there were the shortest and
not the most handsome okay but for some
reason when God created and formed Elia
and when God was aware of all the other
brothers he was going to bring on the
earth through Jesse he caused Ilyas to
be the tallest and the most handsome
even the prophet the prophet of God in
his own wisdom believe this is
definitely the one that God has chosen
what they didn’t realize is that that
was never God’s standard you see Israel
is a chosen nation when God wants to do
things based on the fact that you are
chosen by him it is never the same as
what works for other people and when he
was calling when he chose David he was
not going to choose David in the manner
because now it is his choice now he’s
making a choice based on what he desires
for the people you see I share this to
say a lot of times you can have the gift
right let’s say you think you see
someone else that is saying gain and
it’s working for them
this person is singing God this person
is you know making money fame all of
that you’re looking at yourself and I’m
a singer you know hook why do they
happen for me what is going on
thank you very much
but what you don’t understand is that
God can give you a very similar gift but
how what he wants to do with that could
be very different and so we have come
week we have accustomed to you know what
I have this gift I have this talent I
have this ability I can do this this
should be the profession I go into you
know I am this this should be the place
because of this and things are like this
is a place I should live you know this
is my budget so this is where I should
be
we have this idea based on what society
what people what the Council of people
have told us and so when it’s not
working in our wisdom and we don’t think
of it this is the truth you’re not
thinking of it as your wisdom you’re
just thinking of it as what makes sense
it makes sense for iliad to be king all
they knew of God’s standard was when God
chooses a king well he’s obviously
beautiful and he saw see some of you are
in this room and you’re angry if you’re
honest there’s this anger because anger
just masks hurt and the anger is that
God why is it not working and it’s not
just why is it not working because
someone within your very missed the same
thing that could work for you is working
for them
Elia was David’s brother his oldest
brother and now he’s watching his
brother be anointed king if the prophet
Sam will thought that Iliev should be
the one anointed what do you think Ilya
thought you see Ilya after this it
appeared to be that he he carries some
bitterness and some hurts because if we
go to first time wall I believe it’s 19
there was an encounter that he had with
David 17 hallelujah
as a counselor he had with David Soucie
their father so ilya first of all was in
Saul’s army right and this is when God
the very thing that you believe about
yourself God will cause something to
come in the mist to show you this is not
the door I have for you you see there’s
a point where you know Ilya is in the
army
Goliath obviously we know you know the
story of Goliath Goliath shows up the
finished signs of fighting the
Israelites right
the lion is a warrior he’s not good life
is not the king he’s just a warrior like
Ilya was a warrior the lion shows up and
he says look look look we don’t need to
do all this fighting each other I am a
warrior select one of your warriors and
let’s fight
whoever wins you know the loser would
submit to the winner you know if you
guys went to the philistines of submit
to the israelites so during this period
their father
david father sent David on an errand he
says you know what bringing food to your
brothers and let me know about your
welfare David goes over to meet his
brothers David hears about Goliath he
hears about what’s happening here is
that you know Goliath is saying all
these things you know just define the
name of you know the God they serve and
all these things about what he’s going
to do so David starts to inquire so now
it says now Ilyas his oldest brother
heard when he spoke to the men so this
is when he’s hearing David speak to the
men so David is interested about what
would happen to the person who
challenges Goliath now Goliath has said
give me a warrior just like I am a
warrior David even though we have knows
you have an anointed king it’s still
like here see the shepherd boy I don’t
care what happened right so Ilya and it
says an ileus anger burns against David
you see like I said anger is only a mask
for hurt
eally ab is in a place I believe of
confusion how is the thing that was
supposed to be for me it makes sense
that the
should be the path for me is given to my
brother and now my brother is here for
what if his insecurities about his
inability to perform as a soldier
because all along you know they’re doing
things that every soldier can do they go
in for battles you fight all that stuff
but now Goliath is trying to single out
a person Ilya is very aware he’s not
going to fight Goliath because if he was
he would have signed up for it
so there was a door in front of him that
he cannot walk through and David who he
has watched anointed that probably
obviously has the ability to do it he’s
angry at him and he says why have you
come down and with whom have you let
those few sheep this is just anger
talking right in the wilderness and then
he says to David I know your insolence
and the wickedness of your heart for you
have come down in order to see the
battle so in helium’s mindset David
seeing the battle carries an evil
motivation he’s thinking that perhaps
David is here to watch me fail and he’s
angry at that you see from Elliott’s
perspective and from what I believe God
was doing with Ilya AB was given him the
opportunity to surrender what he had
believed about himself all along Ilya
was a warrior in Saul’s army and if he
looked at himself when when the Prophet
comes in he’s probably thinking I should
probably be the king that they’re going
to anoint but this is an opportunity for
him to start over it was an opportunity
for a new beginning in his life but the
fear of failure and failure is never
really failure failures morale is it’s
more of the perception of how people
would view you that we fear because
failure in itself is always a lesson we
learn something we are taught something
we are taught how to do
something different it’s what trains
that is what builds us the fear that we
have is how people would perceive us
Illya what was what what would he went
when the story comes out that way God
chose David and not you aren’t you like
the most handsome in the family aren’t
you the tallest in the family
you see family what God showed me in
this room those watching there certain
gifts their talents their places their
professions their things that you’re
holding on to their people and and there
is a disconnect for some reason you
cannot move forward at this point it has
been working all along and I’m not
talking about you know enduring or you
know you know waiting it out I’m not
talking about that instinctively you
know that something is wrong it’s not
about you have a need for patience
there’s something wrong and in this
season God desires for you to be in
front of your open door he’s not
desiring for you to be in the wrong
place
and so seeing a shut door is just room
for redirection it’s wrong to say Lord
maybe I got this wrong and that’s okay
because it would it would allow me to
value what’s right you see when I was
reading this there were four thoughts I
had about starting over and I’ll share
that the first one we could put that up
the first one deals with the God thing
is not designed to fit you is designed
to stretch you you see we like if Iliad
was king if they chose him right it’s
what fits him he fits the part he has
the look he has the height it fits him
but when God is calling you can we have
the background in black please when God
is calling you God is never calling you
to something that fits he calls you to
something that will stretch you
you see when I was prepared for this
message there was this almost this image
God gave me when when when God calls us
right it’s almost as though God is let’s
say right here there’s a version of me
right here when he calls you I see my
friend guy in the back guy key please
stand up we’re going to do a
demonstration here when he calls you so
stay right there you’re all the way
you’re all the way for those watching
he’s all the way back there you’re all
the way back there and you might be
doing all kinds of crazy things right
party and do around what you do but
hopefully not now right but there was a
version of you that is with him
that is the highest version of you so
when he when he says the whole thing
about the calling of God that’s why you
never talk yourself out of the calling
God is very aware of where you are he’s
very aware of all the stuff you’re doing
but when he calls you just like when he
says a name so if I say and guy right
come forth first of all he has a
decision to say yes that’s the whole
thing when we say would you give God
your yes he has a decision to say do I
want to do I want to answer the calling
do I not want answer the calling if he
says yes he starts walking towards me
right and so every step you could walk
every step he takes he’s walking into a
higher version of himself a higher
version of himself and so what God does
and ultimately so if this is if this is
where God is standing and the final you
know the final thing obviously heaven
when guy is now standing right here with
the Lord right and so when when he calls
you every door he opens is to call you
to a higher version of yourself it’s not
about it’s not about what’s supposed to
make sense because you haven’t even met
that person you knew the person at the
door you don’t know the person here
but God knows every version of you and
he knows what would ultimately cause you
to be here and so the calling of God is
a process it’s not because he called you
that means oh my gosh I need to get my
life right I don’t know why I keep doing
this
Lord I’m not sure you called me because
I keep doing this no God was aware and
he knows every platform every door that
would lead you to a higher version of
yourself you see with Illya it was not
about him becoming King no no no no no
there was a purpose I believe those a
very powerful purpose on on his life but
if we are stuck in this place of anger
which is not even dealing with the real
emotion which is just hurt if we don’t
say God I feel I’m hurt about this guy
you’re there thank you very much if we
don’t say if we don’t say god this thing
I know I haven’t had a belief about
where my life is supposed to be right
now I had a belief about what this
profession was supposed to do I had I
had a belief about this relationship I
had you know I had add an idea about
this an idea about that it’s okay to be
hurt
it’s that’s you know that God is not
afraid of me it’s just like saying it is
the answer worried about the question
you know it can be an answer be scared
if you give it a question the answer
needs a question right so so God is not
afraid of you bringing your questions to
him he is the way right he is the truth
and so your questions it does not bother
him your questions does not mean you you
are an unbeliever God values
relationship that’s why it’s a visible
scripture that says that come let us
reason together God desires for you to
talk to him and so if something hurt you
like Ilya was hurt bring that to him I
thought this was supposed to be like
and this is supposed to be like this why
is it not working
could it be that the even when you know
there’s a profession that you love let’s
say you you love to run or something
right and for some reason the mindset
the career that you had in mind with
running it’s not what’s panning out
and what if God has a vision of you
training high school students oh I don’t
know something right he has a vision of
maybe it’s not about you doing what you
wanted to do but I want this to become a
purpose for you to use this and build
other people what we have we have a
vision based on what has been working
for others and that brings to my second
thought that the idea that that you know
the idea that God no that idea I can’t
even read what I’m writing the idea that
inspired your birth wasn’t an existent
idea you see that the scripture talks
about that God is the beginning and the
end but in him there is no end so he’s
just trying to tell you that everything
is in me I am infinite I wouldn’t create
you to duplicate someone else you are
not the copy of someone else’s life as a
child of God you are chosen by him he
would not operate he would not function
in your life like he does for or like
you see for every other person and so
whatever it is that is a weight on you
when I was praying about this message I
pray that the Holy Spirit would reveal
to each person listening what their it
is what is that thing that is is
weighing on you that you cannot seem to
figure out God but what is this
disconnect this was working at a point
in time and he wants to show you that
look if your mindset is based on what
you have seen there’s a renewal of the
mind that needs to take place
because I am so endless I don’t need
copies God does not need another you
walk in the streets even twins there
don’t come out at the same time and the
third thing third thing there is more to
life than winning
hashtag winning now when I say this I’m
not talking about you know being a
conqueror in God I’m not I’m not talking
about that way because and that we are
always winners why we have the victory
to try Christ Jesus I wanna say trust we
have the victory through Christ Jesus
what I’m talking about is our
generations obsession with winning that
we are so obsessed with this idea of
winning at the cost of destiny we are so
obsessed with with looking like we have
we are winning that we are we are
winning as things that have no business
in our lives
you see I remember just are in college
though this guy was talking to him right
he just looked like a you know daddy
would is he right yeah I mean just a
beautiful man
our our best conversations where when we
didn’t have conversations as also and
get to Eppie if he opened his mouth I
was off you know I’m just okay why why
why what you see because of his beauty I
was winning
I felt listen I am winning in this some
relationship Fame because why people
would see here I’m like yep winning you
know haha but when nobody was around I’m
like lord have mercy
this man should never speak he should
not creep because when he speaks I’m
just like why am I here
right and so I should I share this to
say that sometimes this obsession with
winning it’s all about validation it’s
about how would people perceive me you
see was it could it have been that Elia
prostrations had nothing to do with if
he was king if he wasn’t king who could
I mean he wasn’t king right there was
already a king he was fine with that but
now looking like a failure before people
that when God decided to pick someone in
your house he picked the one that
doesn’t look the part
what is this obsession we have with
winning and not in God’s Way I’m talking
about the world’s way where we will
restrict to things just to look like yes
hashtag CEO hashtag boss hashtag winning
and you know and the CEO is not the
purpose that God has called for you it’s
a beautiful thing to run your company is
a beautiful thing to be an intrapreneur
but it’s even better to be authentic and
so all I’m saying is that God can call
you in in a variety of things but is it
your but let it be that which he called
you to do let it be that okay you know
God this is this is a theme that you’re
telling me to do so you know yes and it
might not look like I’m winning in the
beginning but if I’m walking in my truth
that’s the real definition of winning
that is when you have the victory in
Christ Jesus because the truth is God
will never you know validate something
that it’s not his and so I bring this up
to say even as we are here what is that
thing that you are so obsessed with
people knowing you have a hand over and
is that saying God or is that based on
this need to for validation this need
for people to you know like you if it’s
garden that’s beautiful because guess
what got to here know he’s a boss see
hashtag winning but he wants you to win
in your truth he wants you to win in
what He has called you to do not to win
in a life the fourth thing is do not be
afraid to seek you see Elia
it’s so interesting the name Aliyah
actually means God is my father I don’t
think it’s coincidence that he would
have such a name because there’s a
passage in Matthew I believe is Matthew
7 or so 9 to 11 when it talks about
hallelujah you see it says what man is
there among you when his son asks for lo
will give him a stone and then it says
or if or if he asks for a fish will he
not give him or will he not give him a
snake will he doesn’t interesting on
work now if you hallelujah if you then
being evil know how to give good gifts
to your children how much more will your
Father who is in heaven give what is
good to those who ask him
family I’m here to tell you that where
there was confusion God desires to give
you clarity if Ilia God being a good
father
if Elia was willing to seek the Lord and
we don’t know the end of his story so
perhaps Munoz maybe it’s open-ended but
even I will remove his name and output
your name what is it that has caused you
confusion what is it that is causing you
hurt and and God is saying look I am a
good father don’t be afraid to seek me
because God is willing this season is so
critical God is willing to show you who
you really are so you can walk down the
path of open doors don’t be afraid to
seek things out don’t be afraid takes
time for some people perhaps you might
need to go in too fast and I don’t know
but take some time it is so important
that you in this season be willing to
surrender everything you think you know
about yourself and sick father Who am I
what have you called me to do you see I
have some really good cheekbones right
after them but that’s another story
with that i’ma show sorry yes Oh what
you got listen so for so long people
will tell me Stephanie you should model
because you got cheekbones right I’m
like you know it’s sort of natural right
so everyone said like Stephanie shamalia
smiley smile on my life you know and I
used some other when I was younger in
Nigeria and I just I never liked it
right to naija
I never it was never my saying I just I
just didn’t like it I was just like I
don’t want to model and then everyone
will keep telling me Stephanie should
model you should model you tomorrow you
should model and so you start hearing so
many people’s voices and you’re like God
I even talking about a conversation I’m
even having the Lord I’m just like God
you know everyone is telling me the
model I don’t want to be afraid to miss
something that would bless me you see we
have this thing where we are afraid to
miss God we are afraid to miss the
purpose we’re afraid to miss the calling
God knows how to get information to you
there’s no need to be afraid of
something and so oh my god you know I
don’t want to miss this you know what
but but something deep down I was not
connected with it right and so one day
and I would get these messages and oh my
god are you the one talking about
modeling and and there are tongues where
he would talk to me about modeling but I
never really inquired further so I
assumed that the moment he says modeling
I filtered that through the counsel of
people oh you know what God said Marlon
I think I should be a model so one night
you know I was like okay god I really
need to understand this thing you know
am I missing out on my blessing you know
is there like checks out there for me
that I need to be cashing in on lesson
so one night oh my god really talk to me
about this thing
so he says to me very simply he says
just give me your yes towards modeling
and I will show you what it is I said
okay boom I say okay yes God you know
yes two hours later a friend text me
she’s like hey girl what are you doing
tomorrow at 6:00 a.m. I’m like um what
do people do at 6:00 in the morning
I don’t know coffee front chatter of
what 6:00 a.m. that’s just crazy like
what am i doing you know studying I
don’t know um so I’m like what’s up all
right because I can’t really answer that
question and so she’s like hey you know
um she’s like XS Hollywood needs a model
for something I’m supposed to be there I
can’t make it can you do it normally I
would be like yeah right
but I’m like God I were to give you a
yes oh Lord I was like sure girl you
know
wink face haha looking excited but I’m
not emojis or deceitful so the next day
I’m just like Stephanie why what are you
doing right so I go there I’m like okay
fine I get to the studio where like you
know so I see where you know they have
the clothes or whatever he goes ahead
and she says she tells them like oh you
know she’s a pastor I didn’t know she
told him that so I’m in there I see the
outfit they had laid for me and you’re
like what we heard your pastor said Oh
awesome just great
Oh My isn’t that fascinating and so they
had they had this dress if with the
dress there’s a story behind it there’s
a story that would cause you know give
praise to Jesus so what is jazz they had
the giving keys for the necklace they
had two given keys from China have one
of them on me somewhere in there the
lady comes in she’s like so one of the
the hosts he comes and she’s like wow
that is so fitting for you being that
you’re a pastor so praise God
you know hallelujah the whole time I
really do
to be here but I’m here because I said
yes God so funny enough every other
model there and not really models you
know one was an actress on the show I
love another one was talk-show host but
everybody’s there to model I’m like okay
right so the show is going live and
they’re like hey you’re going to go
first I’m like sure so I’m out there
walking on the camera and you’re like
wow you know she’s a pastor this is live
TV I was like yes do you want a sermon
oh I didn’t say that though well I guess
the hello praise God I get off the stage
I don’t even know if he’s here or not
one of the guys in the studio who works
with them he comes up to me he’s like
passed and I said oh I say hi first wow
you model as I sure do
praise God and so he’s like yeah you
know I just you know once you’re just
one Church ha ha
praise God um so when I left I figure
out what what did I do is I sign up for
what was this right and the Lord spoke
to me he said I told you I would show
you something he says I have not called
you to modeling the way everyone models
I have called you to represent because
modeling right is about representing a
brand that’s that’s what it is he says I
have called you to represent me and so
even having even having the chain for
the giving keys the given keys is a
brand that you know when you look into
their look into what they’re about every
every purchase you made they use it to
actually support people that are
transitioning from homelessness right
forgive to offer them jobs and things
like that so the very thing I had on was
was what was representing the hand of
God
and then he tells me he says look at the
look at the necklace they gave you what
does it say so I looked at it it says
create and it said I’m calling you to
create I never knew what that meant I
was like okay god I say first of all i’m
i’m glad to clarify huh
this modern situations are bye-bye
and so we accepted that god starts
speaking to me about you know there’s a
movie that i want you to do with the
movie i want you to make oh my god I’ve
never done that that’s not me no you
know that’s not what we do but I was
very fast to say yes even though in my
mind I’m like god this movie sounds
crazy right this idea like this is the
first time we’re doing this and it’s a
very weighty topic but what I’m sharing
this is because out of something that I
wondered god is this you is this not you
being open to him he used that to show
me first of all I’m calling you to
represent me so even though you were in
a place to model all they were talking
about is pastoring what you were
representing was a brand that is almost
like my hand and I caused them to give
you something that would show you an
open door I have set before you you see
even when the idea with the film God God
gave those connected to this project
know that that are involved with it it’s
been a god thing all the way there was
no need there was no knocks it was open
doors all the way from the beginning to
what is happening right now and so I’m
sharing this family because for some of
you God is going to redirect you to a
door that you’re very unfamiliar with
but if you say yes to him say yes ask
questions later right because he will
answer the questions but just give that
if you went when you have a relationship
with him you have that trust in him and
so you can just say God you know I am
not really sure but hey um you know I’m
in and he would explain the details as
you go well family don’t be afraid to
seek don’t don’t define yourself by
what everyone tells you you’re supposed
to do don’t define yourself by what it
looks like you should do what is God
saying God what is your will in this
what are you showing me in this season
who am i if your will is engaged in this
question I guarantee you from what he
showed me concerning you he will show
you and why say if your will is engaged
this is not a question you ask in
passing it’s not a thing of God just let
me know who I am and I’m going to run
off to do other things it’s a it’s a
question you ask in waiting God Who am I
show me who I am show me myself if I’m
going to wait on you in prayer if I’m
going to wait on you in fasting give me
myself because he desires to do that all
he’s waiting for is your voice and for
you to mean it family stand with me
thank you Jesus thank you Jesus
you see family if you are here and you
know that you’re holding on to something
but it feels like there is a disconnect
everything we talked about and you’re in
this place of God I just need to know
who I am I want to know who you’ve
called me to be in the season so I can
walk through the door that already
opened I’m not where God is not in the
business of trying to have you struggle
jiggle wiggle you know none of that is
it’s open if that is you come on down
thank you Jesus thank you Jesus thank
you Jesus thank you Jesus
Who am I Who am I God
that’s a question that it’s on your
heart come down Lord show me myself give
me me I don’t want to just do things
just because I’m told to it’s just
because I’ve been doing it all my life
Who am I God desires to lead you to the
door that he has set before you
but it’s the race that the renewed mind
is that it is a different version of you
that would see that door thank you Jesus
thank you God
if there is a hurt you’re carrying and
it’s been mashed with anger you’re
you’re in this house you walk into this
building you’re watching a live stream
but you’re angry you’re angry are you
willing to surrender that heart to God
calm down thank you Jesus you don’t have
to be you don’t have to be see we’re
children of God
no matter that you know we have this
idea of age on the earth you know you’re
babied whatever dot but we’re all
children of God there’s no need to be
tough before him it’s there’s no need
he’s not afraid of your questions and
he’s not afraid of your pain he’s not
he’s not require you to have this
robotic life of just like no pain no
gain no no not some pain there is some
game right it’s not a gym lifestyle with
Jesus you can’t have pain right if
you’re still out there and you’re
holding this hurt and that is even what
is limiting you from walking down here
because if you’re honest and I will
speak what’s in your mind it’s like it
doesn’t even matter that’s what you’re
saying to yourself it doesn’t even
matter if I go down there if I go down
whatever it doesn’t really matter but
the truth is what pulls you to this
house shows that it does matter
and so you’re standing your ground
almost as though you don’t really
believe he’s going to show you something
if that is you come down
thank you Jesus I see you thank you
Jesus thank you Jesus I feel you see
from me
God will wait on you he will wait on you
thank you Jesus
it doesn’t matter it doesn’t matter Wow
have your way God
you see if you’re battling with the idea
like and not to say this again you have
not lost anything you have not lost any
years you have not lost the relationship
didn’t work out that doesn’t mean your
life the years your you invested in that
was in vain the job didn’t work out that
doesn’t mean a lot that whatever you
invested was in vain
someone might you might have I don’t
know if you’re here watching a live
stream and it’s almost like your
apartment might have caught on fire and
and there were so many things you lost
in the process but that does not mean
everything you’ve worked for was in vain
it doesn’t mean that you had a car
accident and the car was totaled and you
couldn’t there was no insurance and it
was almost like it was lost there’s
there is no loss in God it is not in
vain I need to keep saying this for
someone you have not wasted your years
you move somewhere it didn’t work out
you have to move back then you move back
again and and it’s almost like if my
life just in this cycle of loss it is
not in vain you see the Bible says that
the ways of God and the thoughts of God
are higher than our ways we believe that
you know if I if I put this in here it
has to give me something back right if
it doesn’t there’s a loss but with God
if you’re patient enough you might not
see anything you see that’s why they’re
studying trees they’re selling seeds if
once you throw a seed in their will and
growth there are some things that it
takes years before you ever see
something shoot out and so you’re upset
because it seems like well that was
wasted but at some point if you’re
patient if you if you’re willing to
trust him that you know what all things
do work for my good
you will see the very thing that you
planted there is no loss in him thank
you Jesus thank you Jesus
let us pray and even as we pray if
anyone if there’s an illness in your
body just touch that part of your body
if it’s a thigh if it’s the ball just
touch you know we got bones everywhere
as well hey you know if there’s anything
lungs touch your chest just touch
whatever part of your body and let us
pray father God we thank you we thank
you Lord Jesus without which you are
doing Lord and I thank you that your
children would know you as the
resurrection and the life
you are the resurrection and you are the
life you conquered death so there is
nothing that can die in our lives time
cannot be wasted resources cannot be
wasted they’re all serving a purpose I
thank you Lord that even the things that
seemed and still you know they I hear I
there are many they’re thinking about
how I’m this age and I haven’t done this
and I haven’t done that it doesn’t
matter what if your your purpose and
your create and and the reason he
created you was not for you to start at
18 but for you to start at 45 I thank
you Lord Jesus that this this this
mentality of comparing ourselves this
this obsession with winning as culture
to find I thank you Lord God that it is
broken in this house in Jesus name I
thank you Lord that every hurt your
children carry that has been masked in
in this anger I thank you that as their
undivided altar they are laying it down
before you
I thank you Lord that we all hear
everyone listening that we are willing
to say God I surrender I surrender all
of me to you I surrender who I think I
am I even surrender what I’ve what I
think you said because if you said it
you say it again I thank you Lord that
we would not live in a fear of missing
you or missing is or missing missing the
the time of the purpose Lord God but in
this moment in this time in this season
we’re willing to say God have your way
that maybe I’ve been doing things by my
wisdom of a Council of people that were
not instructed by you I want to hear
your voice Lord I want to know you
because in you I find me for some for
some God is calling you to a place of
intimacy with him he’s not calling you
to rely on the voices of people but he’s
saying my child come to me he’s saying
that it’s almost like he’s like where
have you been I’m waiting for you I want
to speak to you make time for me God is
your father he will not die for you to
not speak to you he will not give the
ultimate sacrifice and withhold his
voice so withhold his voice is to
withhold himself you see I’m praying and
I’m speaking thank you Jesus in Genesis
the Lord was known as the voice and
we’ll talk about how the voice was
walking in the cool of day for him to
not speak to you is to withhold himself
God desires to speak to you are you
willing to listen are you willing to
shut out all the voices and say God I am
Here I am here
talk to me are we willing to lay it down
and say Lord what do you have to say in
the midst of every other person’s
opinion and mine Lord as we are standing
before you I think you that this is an
army of people that are waiting on your
command I thank you Lord that we would
be okay to pause for a second to know if
the path we are going is the crooked
path or the straight path thank you God
guide us lead us we are yours and I
thank you for everyone who has touched a
part of your body that needs healing I
thank you Lord because you are the
healer and I thank you Lord that you are
having your your angels are surrounded
in this place and they are touching your
people and so we thank you God for that
which you are doing in this house in
Jesus name for this for someone even as
we talk about as we talk about praying
for healing
I want to qualify something you see
sometimes sickness is not always what we
call sickness because I only there’s
someone in your family that might be
battling with something sometimes
because it’s all about the perspective
and and how the perspective of God
sometimes an illness is almost God’s Way
of allowing a person to slow down
it’s almost God’s Way of allowing a
person to just pause for a second and
and become in tune with their life
becoming feeling what their surrounding
and so for someone it seems like you
know you feel as though you’ve been
praying for healing and it’s not
happening you feel like you know God why
isn’t this thing happen
but I want you to also change your
perspective even in that area seek God
because what we often may call illness
might not be an illness sometimes a
person might even pass away from
something like let’s say someone passes
away from cancer but the truth is cancer
then kill them you see the cross is not
what killed Jesus even though he was on
the cross he gave up his own spirit and
I believe that is an example that often
times we look at it as though the
sickness took a person away but no God
called them and it could be that this
illness
was just to allow them to slow down say
goodbye for someone that might be
mourning someone and you’re wondering
why didn’t God heal that person what if
that thing just allow them to slow down
and for someone else you’re going to be
praying for someone who might be ill and
God is just trying to give them a chance
to just catch up catch up with your
family catch up with the people around
you and so whatever area it is family
all I’m saying is that I don’t have all
the answers but he does give that give
that to him to where it’s so easy to
just want to both you know be healed but
what if what we are calling sickness is
not an illness and so open these areas
to God thank you Jesus thank you God for
we would move and we will live by your
wisdom by your voice by your truth
because you are the way and if there is
any way that we needed seeking would be
through you and so I thank you for
people that are not afraid to seek you
they’re not afraid to ask you because
they know that you will not withhold
yourself from us
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