hi guys
cheers
how are you
I am coming to you live from my office I
have a meeting in 10 minutes so I won’t
be coming to you live very long but I am
logging on because I just wanted to
unpack with you some things that I’ve
been feeling and experiencing and like
man I only have 10 minutes nine minutes
at this point but I am just going to say
that like I know I posted a couple weeks
ago that I feel like I’ve been like
going under I’ve been under attack
um and for those of you like girl what
does that mean some of y’all like church
of church you already know what it means
but other people are kind of like what
does that mean
um I can just tell that I have been
having to fight to hang on to the
revelation of who I am in God and fight
to hang on to the revelation of what I’m
supposed to do in the earth and if you
have been experiencing that as well then
maybe this quick short little live will
help you as well
but
um I have been going through this
process of like figuring out like my
word like what is my word in this season
and how do I navigate this dress and the
magnitude of my responsibilities and in
the process of doing that
um I have been reminded about
God’s faithfulness
and God’s confidence
and our ability to navigate
storms not just because we have it all
together but what can happen when we
lean into God when we lean into his
wisdom over our own when we trust his
vision and so I’m going to backtrack a
little bit and then I’m gonna speed it
up and I’m gonna get off of here so
y’all go back to your life but
um you know I think that you know we’re
coming off was powerful for many people
and humorous for some people
embarrassing for some people and
um I was vacillating between all of
these different things and I think part
of the reason why I was vacillating
between feeling all of those things like
the moment of
um you know feeling honored that God
would use the foolish things of the
world to really do something
transformational the shame of like being
made fun of and the embarrassment of
showing up in a way that I would not
have chosen and uh the reason why I had
to navigate all of those things is
because that particular Sunday was my
first Sunday preaching at The Potter’s
House Dallas without my husband there
without my parents there and they are
very you know foundational for me and
um to stand in that moment man okay so
they’re like stand in that moment not on
my own but really relying upon God and
wanting to show up in a way that I felt
you know
honored the reverence of that moment and
the reverence of the word God had given
me then I had this really awkward word
about body and feeling things in your
body and how the Holy Spirit can work
through your body and so I’m navigating
like all of these different things and I
felt insecure about the message and then
I ended up you know finally grabbing a
hold of a message and walking in
confidence with the message and then to
leave that moment feeling like a little
uncertain about like how does this I’m
gonna make that noise every time like
how does this moment affect that moment
so I just was in my head
um because that required a level of
vulnerability and insecurity that um
what made a new Demand on who I am what
God has revealed to me about that moment
and about myself is ultimately how God’s
going to use what God’s going to use you
can do all of your studying you can do
all of your thinking about how you need
to do it and how it needs to sound and
how it needs to show up and at the end
of the day God’s going to use what God’s
going to use and if God uses something
as simple and as silly sounding as I
took my wig off and for something it
tore down these Idols it liberated women
like as silly as that sound considering
I’m studying Greek and Hebrew in the
context of the scriptures and what it
means in biology psychology I’m doing
all of these things and at the end of
the day God’s like I just want the
Simplicity of your authenticity and the
pureness of your heart from the pure
heart I studied
from my authenticity I try to show up in
the moment and God gets to choose what
has the most power on it I say that to
say
um I had to get to that place after a
few weeks of like navigating all of
those things and I’m having to arrive to
that place as I prepare for what I’m
evolve 23 that our conference we’re
having a Globe Life Field I hope you’re
registered I want you to come but you
know I feel the magnitude of this moment
and I feel the responsibility of not
making it about me I feel the
responsibility of making it pure I feel
the responsibility about being
intentional and making sure that as many
people know about it as possible and it
feels heavy sometimes and I just got
finished with having a team meeting and
it feels heavy on my team and I was
writing down some of the reasons why it
feels heavy and the first thing that
like came to mind was like I don’t want
to mess this up like if this feels heavy
because I don’t want to mess this up
have you ever for
ever had to do something that you knew
God had put you up to do hey allowed you
to step up to the plate to get it done
and in the process of God stepping you
up to the plate to get a gun you have to
think to yourself like I don’t want to
mess this up I understand how important
this is I understand what is connected
to this moment like I am not even like
trying to say like I don’t want to mess
up this opportunity because I want
another opportunity like I am planning
this conference like I may never get a
chance to do this again and if I never
get a chance to do this again what has
to happen in this moment it has to be
pure it has to be intentional it has to
recognize the general the generational
implications of what is taking place in
this room and I just want you to know
that as you’re coming to conference that
we’re releasing speakers soon like we’re
doing all of the things to try and make
it easy for you to understand whether or
not this is something that you want to
be at but what I am doing that you
cannot see is happening in my heart it’s
happening and how I view who you are I’m
asking God for insight and wisdom about
what you’re up against I’m asking God to
make my hands pure my hands clean and my
heart pure enough to facilitate this
environment for you and your family I’m
asking God to unify my team and to
stretch my team in ways we didn’t even
know what was possible I can’t promote
that I don’t know how to put that on a
flyer but I’m telling you like we’re
doing all the logistical and practical
but what is most important is that we
are doing what is necessary to
facilitate glory and in order for that
glory to be facilitated we recognize
that we have to go through our own
healing we have to go through our own
process of asking God to show up in our
lives to convict us to change us to
transform us so that we look as close to
Jesus as humanly possible with our scars
with our shame with our past we’re
asking God to make us so close to Jesus
that the moment you step into that
facility you can tell that we prayed for
you to get here we desire that God would
meet you here and that we have done the
internal work to facilitate the
Breakthrough that you experience and so
I just wanted to let you know that it’s
not a game
um I just want you to know that it’s
heavy and it’s supposed to be heavy
because it’s building us into who we’re
supposed to be and I just want you to
know that I respect you and God too much
to waste your time to waste your money
to make this a performance when it is
supposed to be radical transformation I
respect the devil you’re up against I
respect the fact that you are calling
them back up when you come to woman
evolve 23 that it’s not a just it’s not
just about being propelled into your
destiny but you’re also calling in
backup I need some worshipers with me I
need some prayer with me I need someone
who knows how to get a word from God oh
I get chills thinking about that that
when we’re in that room that we are
going to be making a declaration that
girl I’m your backup and together if one
can chase 1 000 and two can chase ten
thousand what can 40 000 of us do I’m
your backup like and I am just becoming
your backup right now I’m doing what I
need to do spiritually to make sure that
when you count on me that you were
counting on someone who’s been in the
presence of God who has lived a life to
become more and more like Jesus because
you need backup and we got you because
oh I you know how I think sometimes not
like a rapper but things come to me but
what I’m saying is like you need backup
and we got you so the devil that’s been
taunting you is gonna have to back up so
that you can get up and um and I’m
serious about this and I want it to be
fun and I want us to have joy but I just
want you to know I take this seriously
and I can’t wait to share with you who’s
coming to speak and all of the amazing
things we’re going to do but I wanted
you to know that
um what we have not shared
on a flyer that we have been doing to
prepare is what’s happening in the
spirit and in the soul of our team to
make sure that this is a space that you
can feel free delivered safe loved Joy
inspired encouraged convicted
transformed and
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um
I can’t wait to do it with you so I love
you I said short little situation that’s
the shortest I can be and I love you bye